Turned off

We hit bed early last night, the whole family. Thankfully too, as lately we have been on overdrive getting things taken care of. With RC on four days on right now, and 12 hour days, he is ready to finish his last day of work tonight, which is a graveyard. I was awake though at 6:30 this morning as there was much for me to accomplish today.

I've been asked lately in email, why I removed the comments feature from my blog posts. I turned that feature off, not because I do not not care what people have to say. Rather, because for people who have something to say about my blog contents, then they can either tell me in person or share with me in an email to my personal account. It is my preference to hear from people via this manner of communication, rather than through a comment on Blogger.

jennifer@libidoevents.com


Next, I need a fridge. It would be ideal to find a black one. In good-working-order. Full size. Free or cheap. Can pick up. Anyone got one? Or know where to find one? It is for the kitchen in Libido Lounge, where everyone will be getting their drinks from for years to come. Donate a fridge, help a community out.

I need to purchase a sound system and a video projector system as well this week. Critical. Something moderately priced. Easy to install. Any ideas my friends, leads or tips on where I should be looking to buy these items? Or how about what brands are best or which to say away from. I am not so literate in the world of technology, so your help is greatly appreciated.

If you are an Erotic Artist and you would like to have your art hung on our walls, for sexual explorers to admire, I suggest sending me an email ASAP expressing your interest. There are beautiful newly painted walls, waiting to be adorned with your sex positive imagery and individuals waiting to see your art.

Happily, later this afternoon I have an announcement that I get to make which is long over due to my family and friends. Although I do not feel indebted to those close to me, I have a strong sense of wanting to make them all feel very appreciated. What I have to offer should bring a smile to every ones face. I sooo much enjoy being the bearer of great news.

Life is happy, isn't it? And only what you make of it. Live in the past and you'll be haunted. Live for tomorrow, and you will never understand being present. Live in the moment and you get to experience life at its best. Make no excuses and blame no one. Personal responsibility is the key to happiness in my corner of the world.

Dining at the Y

For those those of you looking for more information on Pussy Licking, tomorrow night I am teaching a public class on the subject. It is open to men & women, couples and singles.


January 22 Tuesday 7:15 - 9:15pm
Pussy Licking Good

The Love Nest - 4687 Kingsway Burnaby
(directly across from Metrotown)

$25 per person: cash, pay at door, no advance tickets


From the silky caress of your warm wet tongue lapping her labia,
you'll soon feel more powerful and in control and she'll know you've
got her pleasure in mind.

With using but a few of the tips and techniques that Jennifer will
demonstrate and share in this class you'll come away more confident
in your cunnilingus and inspired to share what you've learned.

Of course we'll discuss a woman's arousal process and her clitoral,
vaginal and G-Spot anatomy to empower you with maximum pleasure
giving information.

*please bring a notebook & pen to class

Inspired her to Squirt

So I have been getting a fair amount of email due to my Taboo Show, stage classes. All complimentary and enough to make a girls-head-swell just-a-little. It's nice. But no where near as flattering as receiving an email that reads just like this....

Jennifer!! I hope you remember me...my name is sonya we met at taboo at your ejaculation class...although you met soo many people that day! hehe I'm the girl who wants to volunteer I have great news!! I LEARNED HOW TO EJACULATE!! Seriously i've been trying soo hard and i've finally done it! At your mini class at taboo you said something that really made sense to me you said that many times girls think they have to pee but when they run to the washroom nothing comes out! So that happend to me...I ran to the washroom and nothing came out I came back determined to get it out and honestly...i never expected it to be so much lol It wouldn't stop it was like friggin fountain down there! Now im on my way to safeway to rent a carpet cleaner! I made a mess!! I'm still in shock!! It felt a lot different than I anticipated...the whole time it was cumming out I thought it could be urine just cause there was SO much and it looked like a stream! I hit the mirror 4 feet across the room from me! But I smelled it and stuf and it's 100% not pee. I guess the feeling of it isn't so much of a huge orgasm while it's happening, but I feel incredibly relaxed and happy now Does this sound accurate? Anyway just thought i'd let you know that one of your classes educated me to the point where I can actually do it to myself ;) Thanks so much!!! Your enthusiasm in the class was amazing and I can't wait to start volunteering and promoting your classes!! Sonya Wow, I feel pretty special right now, and I've made another woman friend. Sonja is a squirter, and You can be too! Thank you for sharing with me, your joy and success. Keep the flood gates open, and breathe. (and for you reading at home, the girl who has YET to have a g-spot orgasm, know that they feel different for each woman as does the amount of fluid released)

Down The Rabbit Hole

There are two tradesmen here working, they shouldn't take too long this afternoon. The three of us were at Home Depot just a short while ago. New light fixtures, hinges for a kitchen cabinet, moldings and wood for a door, all final details really. There is so little left now to take care of.

The sounds of the saw cutting the remaining pieces, certainly fill me with immense pride. Both guys are humble hard workers, and good friends too. A joy to have such people in my life helping to bring to fruition such a grand vision.

It is next time for the art to hit the walls, and the greenery to fill in the place. I'm contracting a few different artists to exhibit there work here on a rotational basis. Some where in the next week, the last of the framed art will be arriving and hung, and before this happens I hope to have made it to a plant store to find at least three or four different trees for in here.

RC is at work today, he will be home tonight around 7:30 or so. I will be waiting for him, all dressed up in provocative clothing. Dinner will be almost ready. Scotch poured and his robe hung next to the shower.

On my mind the last while, has been the playful memory of one of our early dates together. RC was blindfolded, naked and laid out on his living room floor. I was crouched next to him on the floor, with a crock-pot filled with hot melted wax plugged into the wall.

With wide strokes from my paint brush, I swept dripping heated wax across the exposed body of RC. He gasped repeatedly, but not once said stop. He just laid there, moaning, with his cock engorged, standing strong and upright. Between the wax on his body in strokes, drips and splashes, he soon was encased in layer upon layer of sensation seeking wonder.

I surmise that tonight will involve more wax, nudity and sex as part of our weekend of debauchery.

Sexcapades

On the Libido Events website, we have started listing information on our Orientation Nights For Members. There are already four dates up on our calendar in the coming two weeks, where we will be moving people through the process of Orientation, and welcoming them to the new facility.

This morning my PA (personal assistant) and I worked for over two hours, planning the layout of the welcome packages and the first Free events that are in the works for our peeps who have waited so long and patiently for us to finally open.

This is a child-free weekend for us. I plan on giving RC three days of debauchery to excite and titillate him beyond his best at-home-fantasy.

Red silk sheets are covering the mattress, with sex toys, already plugged in laying out-of-the-way on the floor alongside our bed. Candles are in all the holders and aroma therapy fills the air.

There is a massage table set up in the living room, with oils, potions, towels and candles. There is scotch in the kitchen and cigars in the humidifier. Together we are naked and freshly showered.

We played Wii for quite awhile. I think we have about five different games so far. Tis much fun! We ate delectable roast chicken & yams, fuel was going to be necessary for us to continue.

I sucked his cock, it had been demanding my attention all night long as it swung about while we played Wii. I may have squished his penis as well as done a few minor sadistic things to it with love.

No matter what I did, it wasn't enough to scare him away because shortly he was licking my pussy while sitting in the living room chair. Each cheek of his face, in between my thighs as I laid out comfortably on the massage table twitching in uncontrollable delight. His tongue did an oral caress that was just what I needed in that moment.

I electrocuted him with my new Violet Wand, and he loved it. When someone is trembling saying God NO, that implies they are enjoying something, yes? Over and over again, he enjoyed being zapped, while screaming God NO. It took some convincing to get him to stay still enough for me to make the wand arc enough to zap his cock just so. I was really happy. Who knew that zapping RC's armpits, backs of knees and ear lobes could be such giddy-fun!

Then I let him, all the while he was laughing uncontrollably, use the wand with all its electricity and intensity on my naked bits: and again, fun laughter and squirming had taken over. And to be keep everything even, I spread my legs, allowing RC access to zap my vulva. And he did! With much delight.

We ate ice cream in the living room. Me double chocolate chunk with squares of fudge. And RC some vanilla bean flavor. I ate more than him for sure and it was well needed, all those calories.

There were some mouthfuls of ice cream, after kissing RC, that distinctly tasted like me. Mmm.

Then came the sex. Acrobatic monkey love. Even with new silk sheets on the bed, we do the down & dirty bent over the massage table utilizing the plush living room chair for traction. He slid his cock in my vulva so fast, and with much thrusting, gusto and panting noises, enough friction and vibrations took place, that suddenly uncontrollably there was wet, slick slippery orgasms escaping all over the place.

Tomorrow is a sexy costume, cane, wax and knives added in to our play. Our adult-playground is vibrant and ever changing.

Our sex is exciting, because we set it up to be. Invest in what is important to you, and the benefits will come back to you in abundance.

We make one another quiver.

the cage gets attention

The cage is exquisite. I found myself on my hands and knees alongside it the other day, looking at it with a wave of nostalgia.

You see I was once in relationship so important to me, that what directed us as unit was his Dominance and my submission. Being locked up naked in a cage was a very hot idea to me. Bent snugly over the cage, legs spread wide tied tight with rope, splayed. Makes my girl bits tingle to reflect on those early years of my sexual liberation.

Fast forward a few years, and someone who loved me, made me a cage. It was sold during our relationship ending.

Again a few more years goes by and now I am a switch. I have found my own Dominant core and yet bottoming still resonates with me strongly and with a sense of urgency at times.

Last week the cage was purchased. I drove it to the facility with it in the back of the vehicle, all the while pondering the future possibilities, now that I own "my own cage" now.

Back when Kara was still my service bottom she liked to be folded up small. We enjoyed and had much fun putting her in suitcases, boxes, utility trunks and laundry bins to keep her packaged up tight and out-of-the-way. She too, liked tight confined cases.

RC, well, I have the perfect plan of what to do to him in the cage, and it involves the help of a few of my women friends. I had to share my idea with him though, to entice him to consider trying a cage "as play". I won, he goes in the cage, and I get my scene. Yippee!


The women in my life today, suffice to say, they are all salivating over the cage, and vying over who will be "the first" to get a play experience in/on it. I am very good at keeping my partners happy and making sure everyone feels important all the while still getting attention from me.

Having unique play equipment that allows our attendees to play in ways they never could at home, titillates and excites me to no-end.

I've been thinking about the floor of the cage. Right now, it is just cold hard steel bars. Some, including myself, would say that left as is, it is very sexy.

However given that I want those locked within it to have a good time, it is a thought to put a solid bottom on the cage, and cover it in a piece of plush soft carpet. I will ask the contractor on Saturday morning when he comes to do some final tinkering around the facility, if he wouldn't mind making a removable bottom for the cage.

Yes, there is a Solid Lock on the cage door silly, we can't have anyone escaping now can we?

Where did it go?

I spent a chunk of time today doing a few domestic items that needed tending to. Groceries, laundry, vacuuming, cooking, drug-store, and a few other boring tasks, were all things I accomplished.

While driving about, I started to reminisce about this past Christmas, and the joy we shared together as a family. Then, I started laughing out-loud remembering a "more intimate moment" shared between RC & I.

We were on the island, staying with RC's parents for a few days over the holidays to celebrate Christmas together.

It all started late the night before. In the dark of night, with no lights on, and as we got into bed, we ending up fooling around. Then we ended up having sex. Surprise!

Condom wrapper and condom are thrown about our Private Bedroom floor, the door is closed. No one will enter, it is not a concern.

We fall asleep, locked in a strong embrace together.

The next morning, we awaken and start another day. RC is setting the temperature of the water for us in the en suite bathroom for our shower, as I am in the bedroom cleaning up.

First I find the condom wrapper. Right on the floor, a few feet from the bed, where it had been tossed the night before.

Then, I search and search and search, and can not find the condom itself.

I look through the bed thoroughly before I make it, No Condom.

I lift up the very proper white lace bed skirt, No Condom.

I check on the walls, god-help-us-DO-NOT let it be stuck to a wall, No Condom.

I scan the entire floor area, No Condom.

Dismayed at the where abouts of the condom, I head into the next room.

"RC have you seen the condom from last nights sex? I can't find it anywhere" I say to him as we are both standing naked in the bathroom.

The bathroom has two doors, one into the hallway, and the other into the bedroom that we were staying in.

Before RC can even say no to my question, because I can see the words forming on his face and mouth. Walking along the hallway happily, in slow motion, is the little family dog.

And firmly in her mouth, she is carrying The Condom between her teeth.

Astonished at what I see, my eyes grow wide, and I point urgently at the dogs mouth, all the while calling her name and motioning towards RC to capture her.

In a fast grab at the dog, considering he was laughing so hard, RC retrieved The Condom from the dog, and promptly disposed of it, properly.

It seems that although we closed our bedroom door to the hallway the night before, we had not closed the bathroom doors, and the dog had entered that way.

It's lucky we didn't break our necks in shower, as we were laughing so hard at ourselves and the dog.

Home bound

Try as I may to leave the house today to complete some of the many items that have accumulated on my to-do list lately, I was unfortunately unable to find the strength to even dress myself.

My day was spent in RC's robe, lounging around working on the laptop in the peace of the living room, then later mid afternoon, I could be found napping in bed, with laptop on the floor next to me.

The nap happened though after RC had tied me to the head board with rope face up, and then had his way with me. It is a spectacular view to be tied tight, and see his head bobbing between my thighs. It is so good to be loved like this.

I would have made a meal for the family, but had no interest in exerting any energy. The man went out and picked up dinner for us all. Thankfully too, as I was famished by that point.

My In Box was in need of some attention today and then I found a few minutes to clean off my desktop, here are a few photos to enjoy of naughty interest.

First, the new cage we picked up last week for the club...

Second, a photo of my sexy birthday cake, made by a friend T. who is a professional baker. This was for my 35th back in October. What a cake and party that was! Click on the cake to enlarge it, so you can read the words written on it.

This evening I did three things that scared me, three things that I had been putting off due to personal fear. I feel so free to have completed these daunting tasks that have been hanging over my head, now I can move on from this point and conquer the next challenges that life puts before me.

the day after

Not so much sleep for me last night. I was still wound tight. This morning I had an appointment at 9 am so was out the door plenty early despite my body being tired and wanting to remain in the comfort of my own bed.

By the time I got home it was early afternoon. I awoke RC, who was in deep slumber after a 7-7 shift overnight. A short while later found us out at a mall purchasing a new vacuum for LL and picking up some cool graphics for the walls. We certainly needed the vacuum as I was tired of hauling ours to and from the club.

We returned home in plenty of time for dinner, were I fed everyone and together we caught up on life. RC helped me tidy up some of the mess remaining from Taboo, however there is still a bit of organizing left, that unfortunately only I can do. Perhaps tomorrow, as I am too fatigued for any more now.

It was a family game of Scrabble tonight and I find amusing that the letters I end up with form words on the board like..... WOMAN, LOINS & YONI. I had also MONS and PEAK at other times, just no where to put them. The family says it because I am always thinking in terms of sexual empowerment.

Day Four - The End

Sunday is always quieter, no matter the industry. Sex is no exception. The show was open half an hour by the time we arrived at 12:30 in the afternoon. The most laid back of days for me, in terms of costuming and make-up which quite frankly was needed because everyone working at show, yes, me included, are all exhausted by day four of this monster trade show for sex.

This also means that the crowds were a little thinner and not so liquored up. I may have forgot to mention that drinking is abundant at the show, as most grab a drink and tour round shopping with it in hand. Today was more mellow than any other day yet everyone was still in a frenzy to make quick purchases from all the vendors before they packed up their wares and left. Many of course only have on-line boutiques, or are out of province.

My classes this afternoon were G-Spotting and Sex Tips and both were, filled-right-up! There were people in the audience who liked my classes the day before so much, that they returned to Taboo just to see my next two classes today. And I loved the people in the audience who would suddenly pull out pen & paper and start taking notes.

RC taped the classes today for me, I've watched them already. I've been told I am not to change any of my presentation style, without consulting my posse. It seems they think I am too hard on myself and may well change something that actually works well, and does need anything done to it.

Getting into the frame of mind, to not only educate but to keep engaged a huge number of class participants takes some mental prep work on my behalf. Add into this, RC set-up in the middle of the seminar area with a camera and tripod and yeah, it felt for a brief moment like pressure, then, not so much.

Its so hard to believe it is all over now, I completed all eight classes. There were a solid core group of friends who made possible the smooth look of my classes to each of you, my sincere Thanks for a job well done.

My office area looks like a tornado hit. Some time tomorrow after a massage and a deep sleep perhaps I will have the energy to put everything back where it belongs.

Elated by the success of my classes at Taboo and out future together, it is now time for me to "come down" from the energetic place I have floated in for the past four days.

Time to turn my activist self off and let the woman and mother shine now.

Day Three

A short while we rolled in the front door of home, finally. It had been an exceptionally long day at the show. Day three is, Hump Day.

Today my arches were aching, like, a lot. Though not enough to interfere with much shopping that was needing to be done. Things were purchased that just had to be mine. A new boned blue sparkle corset with matching panties, a g-spot toy, a prostate toy, bondage tape, leather arm band and other assorted items that caught my fancy.

Today's classes were Cock Sucking & Pussy Licking. The first had about 700 people it. Yup, that is more attendees that were in any other class at the show.

Pussy Licking had about 550 people in it, again, more than was in any other class at the show. Including the Dr & Sexologist, the Libido Events classes with me out numbered in attendees all other classes at Taboo.

The Taboo people came and taped my classes and took photos of me while teaching. A tad bit unnerving, but who cares really by that point. The applause had the show taking notice of how fantastic Libido Events and myself is seen by all. Taboo has offered me a lucrative opportunity for further growth with them and not one to run from success, I have said a firm YES.



Both classes today, went bang on. I love my job. I love my activism. I love empowering people with positive sex information. And apparently it shows, my passion that is.

Tomorrow is the last day of the show. RC plans on videotaping my classes so I can watch them at home alone later. Cool.

It is is so nice to be at home tonight at a decent hour as the morning has an early start. Though I peeked in my In-Box before bed and was alarmed happy to see the mountain of emails starting to pour in from people who attended classes with me, now wanting more information.

Once the show is over, I shall return to regular programming.

Day Two

Another day and another two classes. The people are now starting to pour into Taboo. Thursday was well attended for a weeknight, though tonight was obviously a weekend night. The crowds were out and were relaxed as they shopped and spent time at the show.

I spent much of today networking with business owners and giving a minute or two to the countless people that I ran into, whom I do not see all that regularly. Goddesses, do I know a lot of people and am I well known.

After talking with different stores and event organizers, I have picked up a number of great new contracts for work. This pleases me to no end, and makes my spending days at Taboo very worthwhile. Teaching for the show each year is a highlight in my touring schedule as I always come away with such a feeling of growth and accomplishment.

The program for the show has the Libido Events logo and my biography on it, I can't help but smile with pride each time I see someone looking down at their show program and my activism.

RC has been spoiling me as have a few shop owners. Truth be told, my volunteers have even been bringing me treats all the while doing their assigned tasks. It really has been a good two days for me, I have such tremendous pride right now.

Both of tonights classes were filled to over capacity with people on the floors watching too, as I taught a G-Spot class and my Pussy Licking class. Not a surprise, but still quite exciting.

Feet no longer sore, I do believe I am floating on endorphins and accolades.

Good night.

Day One

Observations from Day One of the Taboo Show...

Both classes went great, not that they could have gone any other way. Some people attended the show, just to be in my classes, which of course was a fantastic ego boost.

My feet hurt from being in high heels and excessive walking in them while touring all the shopping and booths.

The volunteers who aid Libido Events and myself, are generous kind, wonderful friends, thank you for being so helpful at this very public event.

I am very well known as an educator and activist. It is heart warming to be supported by so many people who either know me personally or who follow my path and activism.

The more I speak in public the more I realize how important the sex-positive message really is and how much the the world needs me.

There are new sex toys at this event, that by day four of this event, I WILL GET FOR MY OWN COLLECTION.

Bath time now, to soak my weary body, then on to bed. Tomorrow is another long day.

Taboo Sex Show

As of tomorrow, I will be teaching two classes a day, for the next four days, for the Taboo Sex Show.

I realize now how far I have traveled as an educator over the years, as I am just starting to prepare tonight, for these eight massive classes. Not even a single case of nerves, just excitement about introducing everyone to myself, Libido Events and of course, my Erotic Arts Curriculum.

Catch a class with me, and make sure you arrive early for my classes as they are standing room only and very popular.

RC and I went shopping today and hit up a few of our local fetish stores. I got the most amazing red and black new skirt and waist cincher, hair pieces for costuming, stockings and pasties and the man got a new kilt and a rubber shirt. We each ended up with multiple purchases as outfits are important when standing before the masses teaching and being noticed.

Time for me to pack now for tomorrows first two classes, Sex Tips and Cock Sucking.

My life is blessed with wonderful friends and opportunities.

Thank you.

Finally

Libido Lounge has now been open
for 1 full month.

YEAH!

Avoiding Gender Bias

The Husband Store

A brand new store has just opened in New York City that sells Husbands. When women go to choose a husband, they have to follow the instructions at the entrance:- "You may visit this store ONLY ONCE! There are 6 floors and the value of the products increase as you ascend the flights. You may choose any item from a particular floor or may choose to go up to the next floor, but you CANNOT go back down except to exit the building!

So, a woman goes to the Husband Store to find a husband.

The 1st floor sign reads::
Floor 1 - These men have jobs.

The 2nd floor sign reads: Floor 2 - These men Have Jobs and Love Kids.

The 3rd floor sign reads:
Floor 3 - These men Have Jobs, Love Kids and are extremely good looking.

"Wow," she thinks, but feels compelled to keep going.

She goes to the 4th floor and the sign reads:
Floor 4 - These men Have Jobs, Love Kids, are Drop-dead Good Looking and Help with Housework.

"Oh, mercy me!" she exclaims, "I can hardly stand it!"

Still, she goes to the 5th floor and sign reads:
Floor 5 - These men Have Jobs, Love Kids, are Drop-dead Gorgeous, help with Housework and Have A Strong Romantic Streak.
She is so tempted to stay, but she goes to the 6th floor and the sign reads:

Floor 6 - You are visitor 31,456,012 to this floor. There are no men on this floor. This floor exists solely as proof that women are impossible to please. Thank you for shopping at the Husband Store.


To avoid gender bias charges, the store's owner opens a New Wives store just across the street.

The 1st floor has wives who love sex.

The 2nd floor has wives who love sex and have money.
The 3rd through 6th floors have never been visited.

Comments on SULTRY

I found this posted on a locals swingers websites message forum. Of course it pleased me, so I wanted to invite you to have the chance to read this as well.

Its wonderful to read things from other couples perspectives.

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WOW! ... Can't wait for the next one..

C and I went to the Libido Events Sultry party on Saturday and had a fantastic time.

I was definately excited to go and experience this new event. I have always wanted to experience a bath house - it has always held an appeal because of its history and seediness and I have heard great stories from other couples about it.

Jennifer organized the entire downstairs area for our group. As you walked, the first room was set up with chairs and TV with porn playing - turn the corner and the locker area room was set up with benches on one side and access to the lockers on the other. Two small tables with snacks and lots of water and pop.

There were three massage tables also in that area, and some nice music playing. Once we changed out of our clothes, we ventured into the cooler of the two steam rooms.

As we got warmed up, the conversation started to heat up. We had some great conversation about lifestyles events etc. Just getting to feel comfortable with everyone at that point.

We left the steam room to cool off, have a shower..

As we were showering, I decided it was time to pay attention to my sweethearts now engorged cock - it was fun to watch the others reactions as they exited the steam room two by two.

At this point, Jennifer jumped into the mix and that started the booby slide in the shower room - she got all the girls sliding their boobies together - and the boys were adding soap to the center of it all to help us with the sliding part.. lol.

As the group started to gather in the shower room, Jennifer suggested we all introduce our coochies.. so we went around the room twice - first the ladies and then the gents. Needless to say, this broke the ice and from that point on there were no more inhibitions and folks went about having fun. Every corner and every room had something sexy going on.

I have to say, after being at lots of lifestyle events, this one was very unique, and tons of fun.

I think Jennifer is hoping to hold the event quarterly, and I for one will be on the list for the next Sultry party!

Kudo's to Jennifer for the Georgia Straight article, and for continuing to forge the way ahead in our kinky world.

Thanks again for a great night Jennifer (and RC)

J & C

Burlesque in Vancouver

Lately I have been a real homebody. Aside from leaving the house to work, I have been spending most of my time home bound. Readying for Christmas and still recovering from public consumption.

Two days ago I happily received a reminder that Friday was the burlesque Christmas show, for local talent, the Screaming Chickens. I really wanted to go. RC and I went and dragged some friends with us as well. They found a sitter, we picked them up, and off we drove together, to The Cobalt on Main Street.

We found over 15o people easily out on this Friday, specifically to see these hotties take it off. Since we arrived half an hour before the show we found upfront and personal seats together for the four of us, making the view of stage, perfect! But with so many people in attendance, I only saw a handful of the people I was hoping to say a warm hello to!

The latest and greatest Taboo Revue show featured singing, dancing and comedy from Melody Mangler, Darla DeVine, Violet Femme, Fanny Fabulous, Lola Lockehart, Bonbon Bombay, April O’Peel, Mad Madam Mimz, Bobbi Whiskey. The night was hosted by Evil Bastard and Bernie Bombay. (I removed the name of the opening comic because his drug humor was offensive and he was the only down side to the whole evening)

It was nice to spend an evening out with friends, in a sexy atmosphere and not have to lift a finger to do anything. No one even looked to me to do anything resembling work. Ok, except to drive them home. I was the designated driver, being the non-drinker and all.

Walnuts, Fame, Fortune and a Laugh

Help! I need 1500 walnuts.

I require the nut whole, in the shell.

They are not to eat, so quality of nut is irrelevant.

And I need them free or very inexpensive.

The project they are to be used in begins for me in the first week of January 2008.

Leads, tips, ideas anyone?



Now for some awesome news.

The Taboo Sex Show hired me to teach eight classes for them in January. This is very exciting for me, and doubles the load of what I taught for them from last year. This is my fifth year working at and for Taboo.

Of course, this does mean, being in the bright lime-light again next month as well. *sighs* The media attention will again be heavy, and the thousands of new people to meet me and Libido Events will be lining up in droves at the opportunity to know more about my work and activism after meeting me on-stage in classes.


To make you laugh at both RC and I, here is a link to something his mother created using our heads. If I didn't laugh out loud daily, I swear, the negativity that I face in sex-activism would eat me alive.

Catching you up

This quiet period from me on the blog the last month and a bit is the (obvious) result of the abundance of attention both positive, and some alarming, that I have received over the last few months. Most recently, the past couple of weeks.

I enjoy writing on my blog, it was daunting in the beginning, but now, it is a place where I look forward to leaving my thoughts behind. I resent the loss of it, and am slowly planning on returning to writing again somehow.

Regarding all the attention I've garnered as of late: It's all been disconcerting and heavy on my mind. This simple one line confession is huge. I never mention anything personal like that on this blog, this revelation reflects my need to show you the severity of what is going on.

I have retreated from view, as I make some serious decisions surrounding privacy, anonymity, and politics. A first, for me to draw back from something. That something would be the public view of my activism from my blogs perspective, as testament to who I am and what I create. I resent this.

It can be said, that I have needed and spent great numbers of hours already mulling over the matters at hand.

There is still much for me to figure out. The issues are large and matters sadly cross over into my personal family life.

How do I show you (ie the general web population) who I am, be true to my self in my writing, and keep safe my family? This, is my struggle right now.

There are few of you reading this right now, under two dozen.

Any brilliant ideas, amongst you chosen few? (there is only one of you I do not know, and you're a work friend of RC's)

Just to be clear, I have a file, FILLED with email requests from readers who want to become able to view and read these pages again. And the requests, and in some cases demands are continuing on an hourly rate to fill my in box ... the longer the blog stays down.

I knew my readership was and is large, but the onslaught of interest from new comers (due to the GS article), is much more than I am comfortable with all at once. They email me with positive questions, requests and at times hostility for my being "who I am", my in-box is regularly swamped, lately it has become a nightmare of people looking to suck me dry of information.

It is true I am a strong woman and I say that loudly. Though I am no force against vengeful, hateful behavior. It is not in my nature to fight, or war.

I also have only so much in me professionally to give away for free. I have a family, a life and I need, NEED down time.

My activism has grown much larger than I ever thought it could and is now providing me with opportunities that are shaping my future and defining me as a professional today.

There are individuals that have anger about my being seen as a professional. They resent both who I am and what I represent and they had found my blog and were attempting to manipulate my reality.

I am simply the face, the public face for sex-culture, and sex-politics locally to some. My mission of sex-positivity will prevail.

I am not frightened, just rather cautious. And tired of second guessing people and actions.

This is both *hugely* positive for me professionally, and as fucking negative on ones personal life as anything one could ever imagine. The negativity at the hands of people who feel as though that by strangling me, they can make the much larger issues disappear. The upswing, my mission and the goal of our culture is sex-positivity, and it is mainstreaming.

It is humbling at times, to be in this place for me and I find myself short on role models in similar pursuits. I am learning as I go, and would like support along the way especially at times like these. I am crippled lately by the bashing and the weight of this on me.

There are some fights attempting to break out in my world and in order to avoid an all and out war right now, this blog remains locked as I watch and wait.

(Just to ease everyone's minds, this all has absolutely nothing to do with Libido Lounge)