feeling fatigued

It is all that I can do to get out of bed and to put on a robe. I am so weary. The weekends road trip and teaching circuit was rough on my body. Fatigue is the word and I am quite familiar with it.

I've spent my entire day at home, exactly where I belong. Recovering. And getting ready to work tonight and every night this week. It takes a lot of energy from me, to organize all that I do, create events, answer emails, run classes ... Libido Events and now Libido Lounge. Being a parent who is a good parent and spends time with her child, being a partner who does things for her other partners, sleeping now and then and lest we forget, that I try to have a life of my own.

Moments where my activism is not defining me. This is quality time then. Forgetting who I am professionally and being a free woman who cries, gets sick, makes mistakes, accepts instead of gives, partakes in lieu of watching and who honors her own desires and not that of a communities or the banks.

I love my job and my activism, though not all days do I want to be defined by them.

I can honestly say, that I never end a days work wishing I had a different career. I end up always just wishing for a more positive society and more time to tackle the obstacles and challenges before me.

Cruel Condom

It can honestly be said, that I now own some serious new kick-ass Spring line, Chinese Laundry shoes. My they are eye catching, fun and womanly. I can't wait to wear them. Next month there are a few more pair that I have intentions on picking up for myself, as new shoes are necessary to celebrate the change in seasons.

And in my toy bag now, is a Cruel Condom. The creator and I know one another, in fact, he stood by and watched me bottom in a scene on Saturday night at The Center. But back to the Cruel Condom, what a horrific little piece of brilliance and madness all rolled into one. It looks like it is going to fast become a preferred item of play for me. Hopefully my partners feel the same way? Scott Paul, you are a twisted man, and I salute you!

Not that it is any of your business really. But I just thought I'd share it with you, to show you how versatile I am. The scene I bottomed to? Well, I was done by a Fucksall. A sex machine that is a reciprocating saw nestled itself into my orifices on the weekend at the hands on some friends of mine. And RC just stood idly by holding my leg in the air, drooling and looking generally silly as he stared at me "being done". Then again he wasn't alone, there was an entire cheering section at The Center who stood by to watch this silliness and pleasure take place.

I also got the most tasty looking edible pasties, that were found for me at Pike Market. And a trip to an adult stores yielded me copious amounts of new stockings, socks and panties all in reds and one thing in RC's favorite of neon pink. A girl can never have to many underthings, especially when her underthings are all that are ever really seen!

By the way, we are home now.

where?

I'm in Seattle.

We arrived hours ago and already have settled in our luggage and gotten much accomplished out of the house.

Coming down south for me, is like coming home. Then again, Bellas is my other home.

I love Seattle and my community here just as much as I love Vancouver and my home peeps.

We'll be back in a few days though.

Now, we are off to a Mexican dinner.

Night!

Taboo Abbotsford

Does the naked happy dance!

Taboo just hired me for a whopping NINE classes at the Abbotsford show in March.

I already knew they wanted me, but the contract is now done and complete!

I am very pleased with this. And feeling on-top-of-the-world.

Given that I get a few hundred FREE tickets every year, I thought it would be nice to share them with you my readers, not just to those who attend classes and parties with me.

So, if you live out in the Valley, and plan on going to The Tradex on March 28, 29 or 30th to see The Taboo Show, then send me a self addressed stamped envelope, and I'll send you back a couple of tickets at no charge.

L.L.
PO Box 28578
4050 Hastings Street
Burnaby BC
Canada V5C 6J4

Get back to me....

I slept like the dead last night, a long overdue catch up on needed rest. My body is still weary from the flu and I am lacking my usual energy levels. Definitely not back to 100% yet.

This afternoon I had plans to start the horrid process of updating the Libido Events calendar with the March class listings and the Member Orientation Dates. Not a task that I enjoy doing at all AND one that I never got around to completing. Tomorrow is another day, right?

There are a few things that I could use you my readers insight for right now.

First.
When is it ok, to reveal something true that has happened to you at the hands of another? If someone caused you harm and continued to interfere in your personal and professional life, would you see the value to knowing the story along with its truths? Or, would you consider it gossip, and not useful information?

Drop me an email to my professional address please and let me know your thoughts on this topic.

Second.
Libido Lounge is starting a new monthly Rope Bondage Night for those that want to be tied up and those that want to tie people up. For the novice to the advanced bondage enthusiast. A weeknight. Members only. This event needs a catchy title, something that jumps out at you. Any ideas, as I am at a loss?

Third.
3HT is the best seamstress in town. (ok, I don't need your help with this, I am just really saying thank you to T for another magnificent job well done)

Fourth.
SULTRY has been booked again. Our third one now. Watch the calendar for the new date being uploaded some time shortly. If you were at the last SULTRY on February 16, and are well written, would you do me a favor?

I need a few paragraphs describing the night from your point of view. Something that I can use as part of the advertising package to draw new couples out to our steamy and sexy event. 3 - 7 paragraphs painting a good visual of the night would be awesome. You can send this to my professional address.

Fifth.
If you live out in the Valley, I need your help. I need you to simply email me the names of your local adult sex stores that you frequent along with any contact info you may have for the store and telling me also what city it is in. I don't need your name, just the names of the adult stores out by where you live. I am looking to know about Surrey to the Kootenays please.

Sixth.
Libido Lounge is looking to Hire, a Yoga teacher. Some one skilled at leading groups and a person comfortable with sexuality as well as the instructor will need to teach in the buff. This class is to be a Nude Yoga class, open to our members. A bi-weekly group. If you, or some one you know wants this position, then drop me an email and introduce yourself and your work, ASAP.

Nipple Piercing

Valentines Day had an adventure attached to it, that is worth sharing.

I awoke on this special day, to a brightly wrapped in red paper, gift. And RC smiling at me all giddy like. He got me a high end personal sex toy. Not an SM toy, not a toy to use on others, but a toy all for me, and my personal orgasmic pleasure.

I sat across the kitchen table from him half an hour later, and gave him his Valentine's Day card. Not the traditional Hallmark type either, one in fact that honored and made mention of one his sexual turn ons. Then I told him to hurry up and get ready as we had an appointment at 11:15 to pick up his gift.

After making the drive to Richmond, we parked the vehicle and I led my guy into the appropriate place of business. At the door, as my friend greeted us, I could feel it in the air, when RC realized what was about to happen.

I had brought him to a piercing studio, and was about to get his nipples pierced for him. His hesitancy was felt, not uncertainty over the choice to be pierced, more about the moment of clarity that is was truly going to happen. Today. Now.

He had expressed the interest almost a year ago, but it was not the time then to do it. Body Modifications should always been done by an experienced person and when you are certain you are ready for the experience.

Elwood made the experience a good one. RC made the choice of barbells as his jewelrey, and ironically we found out he has 6mm nipples.

I am quite certain that Elwood won't be forgetting our visit to his office very soon. While RC was in the chair, all sterilized and marked with ink for points of entry, I looked out the studio window and saw the vehicle going down the street.

I RAN OUT OF THE OFFICE, with no jacket screaming "it's moving, it's moving"! Ran straight out onto the street and chased the Jeep down the sidewalk. At this point it hit the vehicle parked in from of us and was pushing it too down the street.

Jumping in the driver door, I realize the Jeeps starter is trying to turn itself over, over and over again. People are coming out of neighboring business following the vehicles down the sidewalk and road telling me to turn the vehicle off.

There was NO BLOODY KEYS IN IT. It was moving on its own with no keys, so I scream this small fact back to the worried bystanders, who are now joined by a shirtless RC and the piercer Elwood.

Not believing what I have just said to them, they pull open the passenger door of the vehicle to look for the keys, only to see NONE.

Elwood and RC get some tools from some neighboring business, and with me with a foot on both the clutch and the brake get the damn thing stopped. Though the starter is still turning over and with the hood open, apparently sparking.

They disconnect the battery and the starter stops and I can finally take my feet from pushing so hard onto both pedals.

It took three men to push the car off the sidewalk and one of them turned out to be the owner of the car that our vehicle was pushing down the street. He actually saw the whole no keys things and even said, if he had not seen the whole thing take place he never would have believed it to be true.

But Elwood said, and it is true that there is never a boring moment when I am around. He could not believe what had happened right in front of his studio.

And RC, he believes that the vehicle was trying to escape from the horror of being pierced.

After catching our breath, and finishing our laughter it was time for RC to return to the chair.

Shirtless back in the chair, he had both nipples done in under eight minutes. The chair vibrated with his nervous energy like a small plane taking off.

Two large screams, some deep breathing and it was all over.

We sat around talking for a few minutes while awaiting BCAA as I enjoyed the chance to watch RC's eyes go from round as saucers and looking zoned to the squint look of a dull ache.

What a wild Valentine's Day.

Anal Ring Toss

Two things.

First. Last nights SULTRY was an absolutely unbelievable event. Everyone had so much fun, and so did I.

My evening at work consisted of: food, sex, massages, showers, steam, girls lots of girls, orgasms, whipping cream, body salts & loofahs and a game of Anal Ring Toss. (yes you just read that correctly and YES, it was as much fun as you think it was you pervert)

Second. Another email came in that was very touching to me, from the Contest I offered the other day. From a very different perspective than the one I posted yesterday.

Hi Jennifer,

I know it's late for your contest, but I wanted to tell my story surrounding our first meeting.

The first time we met was at one of Teri's G-Spot classes that you hosted about 2 and half years ago. It was the first time I ever attended a sex-positive event of any type. It was a bit surreal at first, but I soon became comfortable with environment and was able to interact with others. About a week later, I had a private coaching session with you.

This marked the start of my journey of allowing myself to express my true sexuality. I've always accepted myself for what my sexuality is, but always kept it hidden from others for fear of being labelled with such terms as pervert, freak, queer, etc.

At the start of our coaching session, I was hesitant to reveal too much about myself. I didn't know you very well and was very afraid that you would be mortified to learn that my sexual desires included such things as being flogged, caned, being forced to submit and forcing others to submit. During our coaching session, I still kept a lot to myself and you needed to prompt me a bit to reveal bits of myself. I was reminded of this during the other days member orientation session when you commented on the differences in your approach in your coaching sessions with new people and with those that you have known for a while.

That coaching session was the first time I ever told anyone that I wanted to explore kink and BDSM . My wife suspected a lot of this, but I never openly talked about it with her. Since then, we've have explored many new things and are able to openly talk about our kinkier sides. While I still have a long journey ahead and my wife and I are at very different places, it's good to know that there is place where I can openly discuss and express my kinkier side.

remembering when

In response to The Contest I posted yesterday this landed before me and left me welled up with tears and so grateful to have the life that I do and the friends.

I changed the pretty girls name, otherwise, this is what she wrote....

aaaah Jennifer.. *s*

We first met as i walked in the door of my very first event EVER.

my first exposure EVER to the world of S/m and kink. i was terrified and you welcomed me with open arms. How many years ago was that ?

6-7 ? i have lost track.

And... there was another first ! A few months later you arranged my very first spanking.

And... group torture of my nipples in your kitchen..

And... You introduced me to a very Dominant person from northern Alberta who taught me many things about my submissive nature and Master/slave relationships. We talked at a SinCity about just how intense that could be. It was and i learned a lot.

And.... you gave me advise on how to focus and process pain... sending it right down to my genitals *s*

And.... you were my first girl on girl play

And.... i recall a particular difficult moment at a public event, you walked by me, brushed my shoulder and stood just out of listening distance but very much in my view. I felt your energy, I knew it was your support and i felt comforted and strong by that.

And, And, And... Jennifer... we have so much history. You are responsible for so many of my firsts in my exploration of this lifestyle, and it has all been amazing.

You launched me

*naked boobie rubs*

sarah

CONTEST: WIN A NIGHT OUT

Tell me (Jennifer) how we first met and what you remember about or surrounding that meeting.

If you win, you and your date get FREE tickets to tomorrows Saturday February 16 SULTRY event.

Value: $80

Libido Events makes a rental of a Private Bath House in Vancouver and takes it over with all of "our friends".

"Couples only steam, sex and sauna event", play with your partner, or perhaps meet new friends, either way the eye candy is sweet.

Your winning ticket is all inclusive: entrance to the event, snacks, non alcoholic beverages, entertainment, play stations, safer-sex supplies.

The event starts at 7:30 and ends at 11:30pm

You can email me at my professional address by 2pm for your chance to WIN.

jennifer@libidoevents.com

Winner will be notified by 2:30pm via email.

Good Luck.

*Remember this event is alcohol and smoke free and you must show up and leave with your partner.

unwell, still

Happy Valentines Day to You, you sexy thing!

Later, I'll tell you about the gift exchange and the surreal experience that surrounded it all for RC and I earlier.

I will tell you now that I was the guest (S)Expert today at Douglas College. Working with youth is so rewarding for me. It looks like I'll be back there again in the near future doing another presentation for them.

It's a good thing I have left my voice almost off for the last few days, because it managed to hold out until the end of todays class, the strain then obvious and the voice went to a dribble.

Still sick, must sleep.

worth watching

My friend John of The Wet Spots (a musical duo), has just come out with their latest video. Watch he and Cass do a number they call the Labia Limbo.

They crack me up, they are so funny. And RC, he, doesn't think so much of them, but me, I think they are a great comedy act.

Disappeared

It's gone. Vanished.

Last night in the last 15 minutes of the class I was teaching, it just rapidly faded right away. Well, to an almost inaudible noise level.

I am suffering from a horrible case of this and though it doesn't hurt, it is making my working life a real challenge today. Likely gone, from overuse.

Plus I awoke at four in the morning, coughing and feeling as though the emptying of my stomach was inevitable.

I watched RC run around the bedroom in the pitch black, middle of the night, getting me medicine and putting an old pot next to the bed for my vomit. Yuck!

Now as I sit on the sofa typing I feel fine, well aside from a stuffy nose and having NO voice.

Speaking is my livelihood, so its probably best that I spend the next two days recovering. Especially given that on Thursday I am the Guest Expert at Douglas College and that is a working gig, where my voice is necessary and must carry well.

In the mean time, I have canceled or postponed all my plans for the next 48 hours to spent time recovering and healing. What a novel concept.

Now let's see if I can keep quiet for that long.

ring a ding ding

Early this morning, I was on the phone booking a saucy little number for later this month.

DIRTY GIRLS
February 29, Friday

featuring: Melody of Screaming Chicken Theatrical Society
Strip, Rip & Twirl: Come learn a routine and all the titillating tricks to remove your everyday clothing!

An In-House Erotic Masseuse to sooth your aching body.

Snacks, beverages and nibblies to entice your pallet.

Music Games Sex Voyeurism Exhibitionism Play Massage Sexy Movies

Beautiful facility.

Play Party Only $40
Strip, Rip and Twirl class AND Play Party $55

Limited Tickets for this Extra Hot Event.

(alcohol & smoke free event)

RSVP jennifer (@) libidoevents.com

Libido Events / Libido Lounge
http://www.LibidoEvents.com


And here is a letter in my In-Box from a woman who was in Orientation the other day with us at Libido Lounge. I felt good reading it.

Hi Jennifer,

Just wanted to say thank you for a pleasant orientation. I wasn't sure what to expect for two hours, but amazingly the time passed very quickly. I have great respect for your vision and your mission; it seems like you've opened a lot of eyes and minds. I can only imagine what things will be like in a decade from now!

I know you will have noticed how I blushed at the orientation, and likely needless to say, but I can be painfully shy! I have moments where my level of confidence is very high, but sadly, most of the time I am this strange mix of wanting to be noticed, but simultaneously blend into the woodwork. Hmm, maybe that's why I both love voyeurism and exhibitionism (first experience at LL - thank you).

Libido Lounge will surely bring many fun evenings in the future and hopefully some great friendships too.

Thanks for being such an open-minded and easy to talk to person. I can tell you make great efforts to ensure everyone feels important.

Future events will be a work in progress for me, as I am inexperienced and unsure of what I like. I do however like the idea of finding out - haha!

Thanks again.

Cheers!
Betty

recounting my day

There are only so many awake hours in each day and some how I manage to continue cramming more into a day than most people would even consider sanely safely attempting.

I am fortunate to be able to handle this type of multi tasking with relative ease, as without this ability, one could go nuts trying to keep up with the pace. Not saying I like it, just saying, I can handle it.

Awoke at first light as usual, and of course went right to working away on the computer to get the overnight deluge of emails to me out-of-the-way. Then back to the facility for yet another Member Orientation in the early afternoon and there was sixteen attendees. Great turnout for a Sunday, and it went so well. Eleven pre-existing members and five new ones.

After class we brought Deej home with us for a quick dinner as we were fast on the move to yet another class later in the evening. After pizza and beer, RC, Deej and I headed back out again.

We three were off to Burnaby's Love Nest store, for one of my classes. I was teaching a G-Spot class, and there was a nice group of fourteen for that one too. Deej's G-Spot both amazed & impressed everyone and I was thrilled to be able to empower all with such easy to grasp sex information.

Tomorrow night is another public class (Cock Sucking), then I have coaching clients for the rest of the week. It will be good to have this round of craziness over with until Friday, then it all starts repeating.

rest for moi

A short while ago, RC left for work. A graveyard shift, which sadly leaves me sleeping on my own. I like the idea of having the whole bed, just not so fond of the alone part.

We had a Member Orientation class from 1-3 and that went smooth. It's so rewarding to introduce everyone to their new space.

Then we had some shopping to take care of. We made a trip to FETWEAR as they are going out of business and the buys are quite good so we wanted to take advantage of this. RC had been in the other day and made himself a few new acquisitions, and wanted to bring me in to see what clothing or shoes might meet my fancy.

Imagine my delight, when I left with a new Cop Costume which fits wickedly and a new red and black shiny vest.


Then we made a return to Ikea to pick up another six identical matching mattress covers. Steal of a deal really and oh so necessary in our business.

There are many opportunities for how I could choose to spend my evening. However, I AM STILL UNDER-THE-WEATHER, and have no plans other than home and sleep.

lozenge anyone?

It hurts to swallow my own saliva, giving head is sadly not happening today. My throat is still store, yet I am not full-blown ill, just under-the-weather.

A couple of days ago I asked a bunch of local kinky folk on a message forum to give me some help. Here is what I wrote to them

I need to rename two of my classes due to a very strict bylaw driven rule surrounding adult materials. And the city in question can not use these two titles in there cities papers or even in their own store windows for advertising purposes.

Cock Sucking: the Hand Job, Blow Job class
Pussy Licking Good

What are some suggested new names given the criteria below?

The titles may NOT list any body part by name directly.

Be very subtle.

And together, we came up with these two new class titles for when I have a more conservative audience.

ORAL: on him
ORAL: on her

I'm really happy with these two new titles and am most grateful for there help with this. Because, being subtle is so not my forte.

baby boom

For the better of my day, I was in bed, alone, either working or napping. Wading through the flood of emails before me, and of course trying to get some necessary sleep for my sick body.

My daughter wrote one of her two mid terms today, she is so smart! I was most proud when she phoned after her exam, with a gleeful tone in her voice, she was feeling confident that she had done well and wanted to share. She promptly came home from school and spent the rest of the day recuperating with me.

RC worked hard all day helping people stay alive, then came back to our nest at the end of the day, feeling on-top-of-the-world from his days triumphs. Tonight was spent watching Gladiator, eating popcorn and taking care of one another.

I've come to the realization that my longing for another child is not going away any time soon. Well, not until RC and I have that baby that just last week he promised me, again. Somehow I get the feeling that having another child is going to further keep me awake.

Zzzzz

Its hitting me now. I am feeling the dreaded long over due fatigue that hits anyone who works on overload for extended periods of time.

My nose is stuffy and my throat feels as though there is a golf ball in it. My eyes are even a little teary. Yuck. I dislike this feeling, and can only hope that it does not progress into anything more.

Member Orientations are going really well. Tonights group was fairly large and all eager to see and hear about our plans all the while checking us out, thus far. Three Life Time Members, and seven Annual Members. New faces as well as old friends. Testament to my activism for sure.

It warms my soul to see the library coming together so quickly for everyone. The donations to it, are pouring in and more keep coming. Yeah!

Jim phoned me today and early next week he is coming up to space to hang art on our walls. His art! Very cool. And I have a volunteer who is coming in to hang the rest of the pieces that have arrived to us from other artists.

Woah, am I ever weary. Friday is a slow day for me, I have plans of working from bed only.

It is time for me to recover and catch some of the rest, that I have been forgoing lately in lieu of business.

LIBIDO LOUNGE IS IN NEED OF A FULL SIZE WORKING FRIDGE ASAP
EMAIL ME IF YOU HAVE ONE OR KNOW OF ONE AT LOW COST
WILL PICK UP FROM THE TRI -CITY AREA
jennifer@libidoevents.com

Random happenings

T was home. From behind a partially closed bathroom door, I hear a low groan noise. Something like...."Aaawwhhh".

I say loudly "what is it?"

My daughter says in an exasperated voice, "THIS is proof that I do not live in a NORMAL household".

And as I look down the hall I could see her head sticking round the corner of the bathroom door as she held up a Tupperware container filled with about eighteen distinctly different *penises, it was all that I could do but laugh and agree.

*the remnants of my Friday night Private Class at a home party out in the Valley - I'm a little behind on cleaning all my dicks :)

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Film Screening: She’s a Boy I Knew, and Q&A Discussion with Director Gwen Haworth

Part of UBC’s Outweek 2008 offering. For more info click here.

Wednesday February 13th 2008

Time: 6pm (Reception) 7pm (Film Screening)
Location: TBA
Cost: Admission by donation

Outweek is pleased to present Gwen Haworth’s award winning documentary She’s a Boy I Knew. There will be a reception before the screening and refreshments will be served. Director Gwen Haworth will be attending the screening and hosting a Q&A discussion after!

Co-sponsored by the UBC Equity Office, Positive Space Campaign and UBC Department of Theatre and Film.

Click here for more information about the film.

drifting away

The industrial park I had pulled into was set along the water of the North Shore. The area is newly developed and great care was taken in how the landscape is laid out. It is, quite nice compared to others. Still I was startled slightly to find my destination on ground level of a three-story building. It looked rather nondescript.

Parking and quickly making a bee-line for the door, as it was freezing. Inside I was greeted warmly and made comfortable quickly. My coat was taken. I was seated. People kept touching me, gently, as they introduced themselves to me. Someone brought me the House Tea. Papers were filled out.

I am taken to another room. They hand-me-over to women, who explain my day to me. Oh-My-Goddesses this is a unique scenario for me. One of them takes me on the Grand Tour. Every square inch of the facility is gorgeous and complete, nothing is left undone in this place of beauty. Where I thought it small in appearance and plain from the outside, the inside gave way to much more than could ever be imagined from just driving by.

When I finally floated out the front door, I was hard pressed to say farewell to the serenity I'd found.

Thank you RC for sending me off on a day of extravagance. From head-to-toe I feel loved and pampered. Friday was a great kick - start to a weekend full of delights.