Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Girl Love

Here I am again, at an unsightly hour, on the computer. Awhile ago, I tucked in RC to our bed, after giving him a rub down with massage oils before he went to sleep. Prior to that, I taught my G-Spot class to a wonderful group of people. My guy works tomorrow, a long shift, as do I, except I get to work from home naked in bed.

There is so much on my plate these days, that my mind is just twirling with To-Do Lists and half finished thoughts. I'm feeling really great about the rewards from all this effort, but the work load has left me with the weight of the world on my shoulders.

It's been so many years now since I fell in love with Allena. Our relationship is the longest one in my entire dating life. It is also the one relationship that has had the biggest and most positive impact to me personally.

Allena has gifted me with her love, unconditionally as I have come into my own. Allena has loved me through trying times and changes of self, character and identity. Her love has made it possible for me to feel safe enough to spread my wings and do things that still surprise me. Allena is so strong and capable, she has always been a role model to me and for me. I am her Top though and she is my bottom, this secondary to the fact that we are life partners of course.

We've shared men, heart ache, travel, staggering successes and horrid losses. We've grown together and continue to do so. I can not even imagine my life with out her, she is my guide and she is part of my family.

Allena knows me in the negative sense, and celebrates me as the positive force that I am. Allena is far from perfect, much like myself, but this is irrelevant, we are true to one another for who we really are.

She is beautiful, wise, kind hearted, energetic, enthusiastic, intelligent, a people person and an activist just like me. Her activism came first, and mine followed, as I learned from her example. We are different in so many ways, from our approach, to our ages and interests.

We are similar in so many ways, from our professional lives, to our style of loving and whom & what we find attractive. I'm a mother, to a teenager, Allena is a Mom to an entire community of people. Each of us is capable of moving mountains.

We see one another again shortly and for a few days. Just being around her makes me feel all tingly inside. Getting in her pants and spending time with her, is what makes me heart swell with pride.

She is the most amazing partner, and she loves me. I am so blessed to have her love and self in my life for so long.