Struggling, are you?

If you are a person who struggles from time to time, or even regularly, this *short* video is filled with hope.

It matters not what your issue or obstacle is, but in how you look at it, and how you face it.

Watch this awesome video clip.

hugs, Jennifer

Prop 8 & Equality

Grab yourself a box of kleenex and be prepared to share this link. It's powerful, moving and inspirational. As a woman who loves women, I couldn't agree more. I love you Allena!

Back to basics

I was too bed early last night and woke refreshed and ready to face the day.

Unexpected news has thrown me for a bit of a loop this afternoon. Dare I say that thinking about it all has given me a wee bit of a head ache.

RC will be home from work soon, and spending some time alone with him, should help me feel better.

It might be nice if we ventured out this evening to pick up some groceries as the cupboards are a little empty. We did not do much shopping in January as we knew we would be leaving on holidays, so we ate everything we had, to clean out the freezers and cupboards. Since our return we have yet to find the time to do a food run and now it is time, because aside from condiments and fresh fruit and veggies, there is not-much-else.

Tomorrow I am doing a photo shoot with another local model. Bondage is the theme. Costuming and make up will need to be packed later this evening. I should really spend some time plotting out outfits and props shortly.

I need to be suspended and have a round or two taken out of me. Get me out of my head for awhile. The whole mother, partner, business owner, sex educator roles I wear are a little much today.

End of the day

I spent twenty three hours at the Lounge, from last night till late this afternoon. The Naughty Party yesterday was incredible.

A woman had a big ol' wet orgasm on my leg. One woman fainted, she was mummified to our stripper pole and another cutie then she got over-heated and boom, she was down for the count.

Hot sex was everywhere, spankings, clamps and floggings were happening everywhere I looked. The action was super hot and the night went by speedy fast.

If your reading this entry and were at Naughty, send me some feedback privately on how you experienced the evening. You know I love to hear from you our dear members and your insights are always so valuable.

I'd write more but I am just too tired. You see I slept at The Lounge, because there was an Orientation there today and also Exploratorium, we gained another dozen members.

Now I am home and in bed. There is a mail out going out as I type this here and in a matter of minutes I shall be fast asleep.

Dating Women

Last night my bottom and I had a date. First we went out for a nice sushi dinner where we ate and talked for two hours straight. It was a lovely time together of catch up and alone girl time, greatly anticipated and needed too.

Then we went to The Vancouver Play House, where we witnessed a beautiful show. The SOLD OUT performance of Soledad Barrio & Noche Flamenca What an outstanding concert, it was energy filled, passionate and breath taking, the pace was incredible.

Seats in the ninth row afforded us an up close viewing of the perfectionist work of these artists. Dancers, singers and guitarists. I was in awe from beginning to end, as was everyone else.

The lead dancer Soledad is exquisite in her movements and proficiency, that I saw her dance is amazing, you would have been awe struck at how she owned the stage and audience, I was captivated for certain. The reviews on her and the show are top notch, and still do not do her justice.

Now tonight is Naughty and it is a big crowd at The Lounge, in just a few short hours. Oh my!

RC and I have a surprise to announce to this nights group of attendees, I am eager to see their reactions. Few know already, and it has been fun leaking it out slowly.

Cuba Photos

At The Tropicana in Havana, a sold out show that runs 7 nights a week.

Monuments are everywhere in Cuba, this is in Havana, the capitol. Photo is of Che Guevera.

At the market in Varadero.

I have a lot to accomplish today. What with out of country guests from London arriving later this afternoon to stay with us for a few days, it should happen that I get the house cleaned before their arrival. Further I have a hot date this evening with my bottom, she and I are going to the Vancouver Play House to see Flamenco dancers and also having a nice dinner out together. She's on orders to wear a skirt or dress, so I can grope her through out the night, it should be fun. Perhaps I'll even snap a photo or two of the woman that calls me Ma'am.

Plus I find myself still needing to prepare for tomorrow's Naughty Party, which I need to shop for a little bit and do some general paper work for the event itself too.

Sighs, it doesn't really ever let up around here. If it's not work related, then their is always personal situations arising. Always on the go. Thankfully I have been rousing early since our return from Cuba, which has left me hours in the day, and has also had me to bed at an early hour too.

Girl On Top Orgasms

Tuesday was an exceptionally long day, I spent most of it doing household tasks and work related catch-up after being away for over a week. When I crawled into bed at an early hour, my laptop was with me so I could continue ticking things off my to-do list.

After working for quite some time, I knew I was wiped and should really close the box and get some shut eye. Rather I summoned my guy from where he was across the room at his desk and gave him the seducing smile of "do you want me?"

With out missing a beat, he hopped right over to the bed. For longer than I thought I had in me, he laid out naked on his belly on the bed, with his head buried between my things and my hands holding his head on either side and at times stroking his hair. His licks were soothing, the sucking made me want him more and his caresses of my sex had me exploding.

By the time he entered me with his huge cock, I was starved for more of him. Great as his oral skills were, and are, I was in need of some serious thrusting. He mounted me and we moved together for a short while. Easy motions, familiar.

We rolled over and I atop him, took him for a ride, and I rode him hard. Grinding myself onto his pleasure maker, our eyes locked when our mouths were not tasting one another. It roared out of me, the second orgasm of the evening and as it came in a spasm out of me, he came too.

It happens now and again that two people will come at exactly the same time, but it is somewhat of a rarity. We did not plan for it, and no conversation was had to allow this to happen. It just did.

When the heat of his load ejected itself into me, I continued to glide up and down his manliness with great stamina and enthusiasm. He shook, he convulsed and he lost himself in me, just as I had done in him.

To be lost in another and with another at the moment of ecstatic bliss is always electrifying.

We've been having wild sex lately, and it's been just awesome. I'd tell you our secret as to"why" but I am not ready to divulge just yet. It feels good to have a little privacy on this one thing.

Swimming with tuna

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In Varedero at the Delfinario I went swimming with dolphins, and a lot of them. There were six if I remember correctly. My man was scuba diving in The Bay of Pigs, and my daughter and I were at the aqua center, it was so much fun.

First we saw a dolphin show, something similar to what you'd see at the aquarium, it was a real hoot. Then ten of us, from the nearly one hundred and fifty that were present had bought a ticket to get in the water with them.

We donned life jackets, and then slid into the water. Since the temperature was close to 30 degrees the water was nice and refreshing. I was just a wee bit scared, for the first couple of minutes but then the time just flew by.

Close to forty minutes was spent being kissed by these gorgeous creatures, pulled through the waters at a fast speed by holding onto their fins, being projected ridiculously high into the air by their noses on a foot push and generally just frolicking and swimming around with them.

What a surreal experience, both my daughter and I were enamored with their intelligence, skills sets and of course gracefulness.

What a trip ...

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Yes it's true. We arrived back from Cuba at the ungodly hour of just after eleven last night, and were home shortly there after.

The plane ride was seven hours of torture, but hey, we made it one piece, and with all of our luggage intact.

Cuba was intensely more colorful than I had imaged: the culture, weather, politics and the people. Varadero was quaint and inspiring, despite the horrendous poverty.

Havanna was over-the-top, the city was breathtaking and the attractions kept us moving at unbelievable pace.. We even took in the infamous Tropicana show as well, and were mesmerized by the skills and beauty of the performers.

I am still processing the entire experience of being away and now am faced with the daunting task of copious amounts of laundry and answering the deluge of email sitting in my accounts.

If I owe you an email, it may take a day or three for me to get to it. Please practice patience, I am still on Cuban time. Things move a little slower in the Caribbean.

We took a lot of photos of the trip which will be uploaded shortly as well, though it is not a big priority at the moment. My man is currently downloading them onto our different computers for us all, there are three different camera's to deal with.

I am looking forward to seeing friends and eating familiar foods. Tomorrow night is Deviant Dining at The Lounge, join us for great conversations and a chance to catch up.

Sex in Cuba

I set some posts to automatically go live while I was away in Cuba.

I am positive I am having a grand time.

Hope you all are enjoying the weather back home.

I am the luckiest woman right now, being pampered and waited on.

Thanks RC for the best Christmas present ever! Wait he's with me, and neither of us has a computer, I guess he'll just have to read this upon his return.

Suspension Bondage Photo

This is an old photo from the archives. Taken by Jim Duvall, my ex. It is me post a long and rigorous inverted bondage scene. The marks were earned.

Family Travel

I am in the air right now, sitting in a very nice seat - with extra leg room. With me is the man of my dreams and the teenager.

Soaring through the sky we will be arriving in Cuba later today. Our resort awaits us.

My In Box is already filling up and it does not matter. When anyone emails me, they will be receiving an automated response.


This is the life.

Bye for now.

A Sleep In Would Be Nice

Fatigued, dog tired, exhausted, weary, sleepy as hell. I am awake against my will.

Yesterday was grueling, I worked so hard, and for far too many hours. Never again will we host a member orientation on a Saturday, it does not work well for me.

This was my Saturday.

Went to bed in the wee hours of Saturday morning, because there was Sultry on Friday night and it ended at 11:30 then we drove all our gear back to the Lounge and got home around 1:00AM. Bed at 2:00AM.

Up and moving at full speed by 9:00 to shower and ready for being at the Lounge for 11:00AM as I was running an Orientation from 12:00-2:00PM. Left there at 2:30 and headed for home. Ate a quick meal, checked email and did some photocopying before I packed my bags for my 6:00-9:00PM Private Class in New West.

At 5:10, I left home and made my way to my destination where for three hours I taught eighteen women sex techniques and prowess skills. At 9:30 I left my evening gig and drove straight to the Lounge, where Dungeon Players was already underway. It ran till 1:00AM and RC and I were home by 2:00AM.

Suffice to say Saturday was a killer, I have not been so desperately tired in a long, long time. I crammed way to much into a day. In my defense I agreed to it all because it is right before we leave on holidays and I was running out of days to accomplish all that I felt that I needed to beforehand.

Now it is Sunday morning at 9:00 and I am awake. Today I am teaching an Interactive Cock Sucking and Pussy Licking class for Couples from noon to 3:30. Should be fun and leave me falling over by the end of it all. In less than 24 hours I will be in sky flying away from the chaotic structure that is my professional life.

Oh, I am eager to get this holiday kick started, I will likely sleep the entire flight to Cuba and it will be the sleep of the dead too.

Revised List

I wrote this list of 100 things about me, in 2005, years ago now. It is a little dated and stale, though mostly still true.

Today I bring you a more updated version of 1oo things to know about me.

1. My partner and I want a baby this year
2. I own a sex-positive business, Libido Lounge
3. My clitoral hood, both breasts and belly button are pierced
4. My shoe & boot collection is over 100 pairs
5. I am forever tired
6. Pho is yummy
7. My man & I met in one of my sex classes a couple of years ago
8. My teenage daughter is close to me in interests & personality & bigger in physical size
   
9. I make my bed as soon as I get out of it
10. Doing laundry is to be avoided until absolutely necessary
11. I am well known for my activism and drive
12. I land in the media with regularity
13. We have 1 cat, and two birds
14. I prefer to shower or to take a short bath
    
15. I refuse to be waxed, instead using a Mach3 razor
16. My nails are long and often painted a bold color
17. I am painfully self conscious
    
18. My close friends are few and loyal
19. The number of people I know and am friendly with are substantial
20. I love Gelato - raspberry
21. Tom & Jerrys Ice Cream is delicious
22. At home I am a nudist
23. Spending time at Wreck Beach soothes my soul
24. Massages bliss me right out
25. Mac cosmetics are the bomb, my collection is rather large
26. I have an office at home and one at Libido Lounge
27. My desktop is always covered in projects, contracts and invoices
28. It takes a number of hired professionals to keep me going
29. If there were 30 hours in a day I could fill them all & still be tired
30. My sex toy collection is arranged into categories for storage purposes
31. My sex toys & implements easily tops four hundred
    
32. I like writing my blog, it is a Personal Life record AND a Professional record
33. My iPhone is the best thing ever
34. In December I got a new Macbook
35. I have had three women in service to me in my life as a Dominant
36. Of those three women, two are still in my life lovingly, the other is only a voyeur now
37. Many many men have proposed marriage to me, ring and all
38. I own real fur pasties and panties (from my man's mother)
39. Last year I visited the Dominican Republic & Maui
    
40. I leave for Cuba in a few days
41. I have limited ASL skills, I can use sign language
42. As a professional speaker, I am comfortable before large massive crowds
43. There is no one in my life who does not know what I do for a living
44. My panty collection is upwards of sixty pairs
45. My corset collection is nearing twenty
46. For sex, I like to ride my partner on top
47. I give amazing head
48. My hand jobs are toe curling and explosively wonderful
49. Favorite lubricant is Liquid Silk
50. Sex with women is delicious and something I truly enjoy
51. I am not always very photogenic
    
52. Crying is difficult for me
53. Milk with Sean Penn is the last movie I saw WOW!
54. Men that are big, hairy and a little overweight turn me on
55. Man on man action is super hot to watch
56. Touch is important in my life, it keeps me grounded
57. Alone time is what keeps me sane, I need much of it
58. Seafood is my most favorite, sadly no one else in my house enjoys it
59. I am a non drinker for a looong time now
60. I do not smoke or do any drugs
61. I have not had a drop of caffeine in over two years
62. I have zero debt
63. My In Box is a source of constant angst, keeping up to all the email is difficult
64. I am 36 years old and finally feel like an adult
65. I identify as Queer, not bisexual
66. a good beating is something I hunger for
67. Single tail whips are explosive for me, they make me wet with want
68. Iced Tea
    
69. My cold drinks should always have ice cubes in them, and a lot
70. I say what I mean
    
71. People who are honest and blunt get my attention
    
72. I am not attracted to women that look breakable or are clingy
73. When driving at night, I always get sleepy
74. My life is booked months in advance
75. Cooking is enjoyable and a necessity
76. The best position for receiving oral sex is sitting on my partners face
77. My father is dead
78. My mother drives me crazy with her constant denial of who I really am
79. My mans mom reads my blog here daily
80. Being organized, keeps my life running smoothly, it is not that I am that anal
81. Taps that drip annoy the hell out of me
82. I hate washing floors
83. I like aroma therapy in the bedroom
84. My Hitatchi is my favorite sex toy
85. As a young person I had braces and head gear
86. I know very very few people from high school
87. I grew up in the Fraser Valley
88. My stash of information is huge on people, places and incidents (worth saving)
89. I work hard and play hard
90. Being a switch is the best ever
91. I am forever sought after as a Top and bottom
92. I rarely have time to pursue all those with an interest in me
93. People flatter me a lot, I enjoy the compliments
94. Teaching and educating is a passion
95. Love is amazing
96. My man RC is a god
97. My girls are the best
98. I keep To Do Lists of everything or I would lose track
99. Finally in life I enjoy shopping, though I am not so good at it
100. Sleeping in is something that happens because I go to bed late, not because I'm lazy
     

Cuddle Party Vancouver

Last night was our first ever cuddle party, and it was hugely successful. Everyone had a great time and it was decided without a shadow of a doubt that we must do it again. Thus was born, our most recent new monthly event. How exciting!

Tonight is Sultry, our couples only bath house event. And Saturday is a Member Orientation class, then later on I am teaching a three hour class at a private women's only party, before returning to The Lounge for Dungeon Players. I am going to be exhausted by the end of Saturday.

Sunday is my infamous Interactive Couples Only Cock Sucking & Pussy Licking class, then it is all over. I can come home and have a serious nap, and turn my computer's auto respond on.

We leave for Cuba at the crack of dawn on Monday morning.

I am so excited right now - soon no more work and another country to go trek through and lounge in.

Proudly Not The Norm

Finding my groove has been a life long challenge.

I have never really felt like I fit in to societal norms.

It has been a constant quest for me to feel as though I was home and at peace in the world.

When I found sex culture over a decade ago, a sense of calm washed over my existence.

I was able to be true to myself and my desires finally. Peace and a purpose were now on my side.

It has been an revolution of change these past years and one that I am most grateful for.

My life has been radical, and inspiring.

The future holds for me even more change and variety.

I am excited for the possibilities and fatigued from the journey thus far.

What keeps me going, is being held up and supported by so many people and the shared belief that my purpose is critical for so many others, aside from just myself.

We are sexual pioneers and explorers and the rewards are beyond the average persons wildest fantasies.

I wish us all luck.

Clitoral Hood Piercing Photo

This photo was taken over the Christmas holidays, and it brings a smile to my face every time I look at it. My man wrapped in a blanket, in the guest room at my folks place acting all ferocious.
Isn't he cute?

This is a photo of you guessed correctly, my new clitoral hood piercing. Seeing as I have posted photos of my mans cock piercing, it seems only fair to upload one of mine. (it's ok mom, you can look, just put down your cup of coffee first)

Girl on Girl Sex

She wanted me and I knew it. Her voice proudly calling me Ma'am all evening had won my heart over and plumped up my dominance to a new high.

The party was well underway, everyone around us was lost in their own activities. It was time for me to go for her.

I told her to sit in the tall bondage chair and to open her legs wide, she needed to be spread wide for me to have ease of access to those tender bits she is always hiding away.

My bag of hemp rope was dropped next to her on the floor. From it I withdrew green, red and natural colored rope. Her eyes widened, as if to say, "Oh really". Chuckling, I pulled a length of rope through my hands, smiled coyly and nodded.

As I tied the first piece of rope around and around her chest and tied it down behind her back with her already secured to the chair, I watched her expression change. She became focused. I fed the second piece through the first and made a beautiful chest harness, then with a third and fourth piece of rope, I bound her arms above the elbow, leaving her in a flapping position.

Each calf was tied to a chair leg, solidly. Her bare pussy fully accessible, viewable and filled with the heavy musky scent of want. She looked nervous but giddy, I was pleased.

The upper thighs were each given a length of rope, to keep things easy for me. Exposed is how I wanted her to feel and how I wanted her to be for me.

When complete she was unable to go anywhere and many were admiring her beauty and good fortune to be bound so tight for what none knew would happen next.

I went and got a cold drink for us, leaving her with a spotter. Upon my return she called out to me, "Ma'am, what are we going to do?" Huh, we are not going to do anything, I am going to do somethings to you, and you are going to submit ran though my head. I smiled, and kissed her inner thigh slowly once, twice, three times over. She moaned.

With no where to go and at my mercy, I felt the wave of power rush over me that happens when chemistry is present.

Her breasts were made to hurt, in a sweet and seductive way. Clamps, pinching and biting, she looked beautiful as the waves of discontent washed over her face. Her nipples were hard, and stood out at me demanding more. I gave in, and hurt them again. Only for her would I do so. She squirmed, I worried about how she was processing things, so I kissed her mouth, to ease some of the ache.

Her mouth melted in to mine as her tongue slowly crept in towards mine. I let her have this privilege. Little velvet licks went back and forth between us, I could feel her gasping into my mouth. She quivered. I was pleased.

My fingers dug into the sweet flesh on her thighs, digging to find some nerve bundles, then when accessed I lifted them high and watched her cringe. Beads of sweat appeared across her brow, she looked very uncomfortable, so I did it more. She complained out loud, and I put a clamp on her tongue to keep her quiet, and two more clamps up her nose. She appeared upset at my placement choices, and I was ok with that.

It was so easy to get her riled up, she and I both needed to do this together. I asked for help and a few women gathered around.

We tipped backwards the bondage chair, with her tied to it. Scared was all you saw on her face. Her head and the top of the chair were low now, and her crotch was high.

I plugged in my Hitatchi and turned it on. Smearing a big glob of lubricant over her pussy I ground that vibrator right into her sweet pussy. Over and over, I ran it over her clitoris and along the length of her labia, she writhed, groaned, smiled, laughed and all too soon forgot my earlier meanness.

For at least twenty minutes, she was masturbated and tortured with forced pleasure till her hair was matted with sweat and she was breathless. When it looked like she couldn't go much longer, I invited five women to come and help me finish her off.

Five beauties gathered round. One woman sucked on her right nipple, another bit and twisted the left nipple. A third woman sucked face with her while another pulled her hair and stroked her head. The fifth woman ran her hands along her body and I ensured the vibrator was set at high now and pulsating with determination and accuracy.

By the time the scene was winding down all five women who'd assisted, plus myself and the bound woman, were all on a bed together. As I untied the ropes that had bound her for so long, her struggles were evident by the deep rope marks that had left memories across her body from her struggles.

We cuddled for a short bit, and when she said "thank you Ma'am" I felt that familiar rush of power that makes me want to control another.

Monday Repairs

Recovery and catch up. That is what today was all about.

A sleep in till eleven.

Ran errands that were over due.

Booked some client appointments.

Stopped into the Lounge to check on things.

Dropped a payment off to the Red Cross.

Visit to the postbox.

Home for a late lunch.

Wrote and sent a mail-out.

Had a ninety minute nap.

Packed for my evening class.

Taught a BDSM 101 class.

Home for a late dinner.

Made love.

Put my man to bed.

Writing a blog post.

Honest Statements

We went out for Chinese food before heading to another day of The Taboo Sex Show. The last day of the show too.

My fortune cookie had a very appropriate message "You Will Be The Center of a Special Groups Attention".

Truer words have never come to me in one of those cookies.

It was a day filled with success and accolades coming out the wazoo. Shopping and tons of final networking.

We came home and watched, Priscilla Queen of The Desert and ate home baked cookies, gifted to me from a Libido Lounge Member.

I am burned out completely. Good thing I shall be on a lounge chair relaxing in Cuba in exactly eight day.