TES last Saturday

here's a photo of Tim & I and another of Allena and I prior to us all leaving for the TES play party last Saturday night in New York...



The World of a strange man... or, a man of a strange world, (see April 11) is who I bottomed to on Saturday night. Took off all those clothes in the photo above save for my black leather thong and heels, standing naked before him and his single tail whip for a scene that left me shaking "like a leaf" and marked like a street filled city map. Pain, submission and arousal filled me up and off I happily floated on endorphins. He brought me to my knees and suffice to say I will not be seen at home sans clothing for some time as my body heals.

No energy to write any more, must sleep. Arrived back today at 4:00pm. So glad to return finally to my home and daughter.

early rising

got to bed at exactly 4:25 this morning, and it's now 9:15. That's not enough sleep for me, but I have a breakfast meeting/appointment so I'm the only one up in the room. And my ggoodness am I ever wiped out.

Off to breakfast, then back here to bed. I was a play party maniac last night at TES and will be recovering for some time. A man by the name of Boymeat, was pivotal to my evening being such a success. Surprisingly even to me. More details later on the club and the play we did.

classes & play party tonight

LLC has Board Openings and I picked up an application package today after attending their roundtable on "what being on the board entails." Aside from a 3 year commitment there's not a lot that was a surprise to me-I've even got a number of people prompting me down this activism path. And this would be big for me to do something this profound. Knowing full well it will change my activism, of course, I'm still looking at doing it.

I've just woken up from a nap after teaching this morning, what a wonderful full class on Leadership As Service. Next I attended a class and went to one on post burn out and how to avoid and recognize if this is happening for you.

In a few minutes I'll return to the conference floor to where leather, leadership and fellowship are awaiting. It's so invigorating to be around so many other people who share a pursuit similar to my own and who appreciate and understand the struggles and issues faced.


One more class today and then off to a MASSIVE play party tonight at TES. Tonight will be where I find myself some time to cut loose and play. Perhaps I'll even wear my new corset and post a photo of how it looks.

more later, off to masturbate and then return to the crowds of people downstairs

opening ceremonies & more (of course)

Took the subway to have breakfast with Michele Serchuk and then we headed out over to the East Village for shopping and touring the sights.

Imagine my delight at finding a wonderful leather corset in an extra small that fit me AND looked good on. I found one made by Stormy Leather and had to have it...now here it sits in the hotel room, MINE. It's not often that I buy things for myself so it was even more of a surprise/treat for myself when just a few short hours later I found the most stunning pair of leather 5 inch stilleto heels in black. Had to own them, I really did and trying to not feel guilty, I bought them as well.

Stopped by to see Pet Silvia at Art at Large and had the chance to finally see his gallery which happens to be in the Hells Kitchen Neighborhood. Very amazing space and the art adorning the place is mesmermizing. Spent time visiting and catching up together and then sadly it was time to go. I'm working on a project with Pet and hope to have more to tell you about it in the coming months.

Art @ Large represents all the very best talent in the genre of Underground, Neo-Erotic & Figurative Fine Art.

Their artists are so cutting edge, they bleed. It's an art that excites - art that is alive and diverse. The works exhibited at the gallery are truly the 21st century celebration of the human form, sexuality, and human behavior.

Back to hotel finally for a shower to get NY off of me. Tim was so helpful with my shower, he dried me off afterwards, leaving me feeling pampered. This after he was on his bed doing penis tricks for Bella and I.

Got dressed into some pretty girl clothes and headed downstairs for registration to LLC. Once registered I headed straight in to the main hall to run straight into Jay Wiseman, who I've now hired again to teach for Libido Events. Grabbed chairs for Tim, Bella and I close to the front and proceed to be amazed at the evenings speakers.


Mary Frances Berry blew me out of my seat. Talk about being inspired, this woman is powerful, and a freddom fighter. Mary is former chair of the U.S. Commission on Civil Rights. Dr. Berry has been a persistent advocate for equal rights for over thirty years. In her public service, and as a scholar and activist, she has stood firmly for an end to discrimination based on gender, race and sexual orientation. She is a professor at the University of Pennsylvania and currently serves on the board of the Woodhull Freedom Foundation.

After the opening ceremonies and speakers, food was eaten and the real socializing of attendees started. Was invited to a private party in Glenda's room, she's with the NCSF. Certainly couldn't refuse her offer since we've always had such good chemistry together, so off I went and had a blast.

Then off to the hospitality suite to schmooze with the other presenters and guests before making my way back to the room here finally. Now I'm eating cold left overs from last night while sitting naked typing.

Time for me to got to sleep though as I'm teaching at 9:30 tomorrow morning.

FYI - what I've written today is only 30% of what I've actually done and seen.

In case I've not mentioned it in a while, my life is amazing!

by subway

not a lot of time to type, but here goes...

We had a room upgrade this morning to a deluxe suite (our toilet and shower were both in need of repair in our old room). This means that we are now living in the lap of luxury here at the New Yorker Hotel and our place is big enough for a party. Yippee. Have I mentioned yet that we are right across the street from Madison Square Gardens? Well, we are!

After the room upgrade we headed out to explore more of what NY has to offer using of course the Subway, in fact, the C train. We saw the Statue of Liberty and the memorials for those who died in service. We hired a woman with a bicycle that carries three, to drive us on a stunning and educational tour of Central Park. Had a hot dog from the stand at the gates of the park, laid on the John Lennon memorial in Central Park and saw more history there than I can type at this moment.

Met a police man and had my photo taken with him because he was standing next to a NY cab an eating a hot dog with his police car door open. How stereotypical I thought to myself! I told him how hot he was in his uniform and that I was a proud Canadian resident, hailing from Vancouver, just visiting NY. Then I smiled at him and asked politely if I could touch him. Imagine my surprise when he said yes with a huge smile and allowed my to run my hands over him as he then posed for a photo with Bella and I. Too cool.

Ground Zero was nothing that I feel I have words to describe. The tears just rolled off my face and the heaviness in my chest was overwhelmingly filled with sadness at the sight of such destruction, violence and death. The amount of people who like me are drawn to stand at the gates of ground zero and watch with hope as they rebuild the area, the towers and the lives of all those touched by this tragedy is touching and heartbreaking. No way to even to know who lost a loved one versus whose personal sense of safety in this world was changed. Everyone standing together at the wall of separation between ground zero and the streets all looked at one another the same. Peacefully and with a look of hope. Please oh please, never again.

Had to go, was pulled by a force greater than myself into the church that was refuge to the workers, aid providers and help that came pouring into the financial district. Parish of Trinity Church. Chancel, St. Paul's Chapel. Mesmerizing beauty and peace resides in this place of worship along with an indoor memorial to 9/11.

Cards, letters and gifts adorn the church having been sent as support from people ALL over the world. I prayed on my knees and left humbled by others sacrifices. Displays walk you through all that happened in the days, weeks and months following the terrorist attack so a deeper understanding can happen for those who are seeking to fill in their own blanks. I found many answers there for myself and now have many more questions that only time will answer.


Back to hotel to drop bags, kick off shoes and relax for a short bit. Standing looking out the window of our room at the view of the Empire State Building and the ocean soaking it in when suddenly some hands were roaming my body.

Tim had found the strength to get off the bed and massage me for quite some time while I just absorbed the visuals of the city. Now, Tim and Allena are off having dinner and then going to a play together. My plan is a bath, nap, sushi dinner and then back to Times Square to wander by myself for a while.

Last night when I arrived into Times Square the first thing I did was phone and talk to my daughter. Wish she was here to have share this experience with me, another time....

speaking off time, I should head to the tub and have a soak. No wait! First an orgasm since I did remember to pack my favorite vibrator, some lube and now I've even got privacy. Tried to have a big O yesterday, but with Tim watching me intently and Allena typing on the computer, I was feeling a little to crowded for successful masturbation to orgasm. It was a good time trying though. Wish me luck now as this will be my first NY orgasm.

we're awake

awoke this morning to Tim, Bella and I all in the same bed together. Hmm, it was so nice to have that much love and warmth along side me.

We're heading to Central Park in a few minutes to sit and play cards in the beautiful weather that today is offering & to have a hot dog from the stand at the corner. :) The park is within walking distance and from there we'll be going to the Empire State Building. After the State Building it is off to Ground Zero.

I'm drawn to Ground Zero and feel like I must see it to understand better what really happened here on 9/11. The city is so friendly, it's difficult to believe that such a disaster was brought to these people and this place. My heart aches at the sadness of what's happened.

Did I mention that it snowed here yesterday morning? Well it did! For about 2 hours and then it stopped.

Tim is currently eating a HO HO right now for breakfast. It's obviously time to leave for brekfast.

New York I've arrived

ok, so right now the time here in NY is 1:48 in the morning. 3 hours ahead of the west coast and definitely not on my internal time schedule. We took the red eye in NY arriving in to the JFK airport at 6:30 yesterday morning. Wednesday morning that is. We had a town car awaiting us at the airport and our driver brought us to the New Yorker Hotel, which is not only where we are staying this week but also where the conference is.

Our room is on the 34th floor and the Empire State Building is like 4 blocks away and visible forever and a day. After we checked in this morning we dropped our bags and went and walked through the neighborhood to get a feel for it all. It's spectacular here.

After grabbing a quick bite to eat, we came back to the room for a 2 hour nap and then headed straight for the subway. On the train we headed straight to Greenwich Village where we shopped the afternoon away. Back to the hotel to change and drop purchases before heading back out to .....

TIMES SQUARE at 8:30 this evening, once it was dark and since it's only 7 blocks away, the action is just so close and exciting. I am so attracted to lights that I almost had an orgasm as the streets lit up with visuals like nothing I've ever seen before and something that I plan on seeing again before I leave NY

We had a very late dinner at Bubba Gumps, fashioned after the Forest Gump movie and damn did we ever have a fabulous meal and incredible service. The service so good in fact that our server is sitting here right now in our room having a visit with us and filling us in on NY while flirting up a storm.

I am now going to crawl into bed next to Bella, wrap my naked self around her sexy luschious body, find our sweet spot and drift off to a peaceful sleep. (with Tim in the bed next to us)

Night from New York City!

what's in the bags?

5 pair of brightly colored open toed high heels (individually wrapped)

2 pair of come fuck me boots (one pair needs polished still)

1 pair of sneakers

5 pair of slacks

1 pair of jeans

1 skirt

1 dress

2 kinky/sexy outfits in leather

1 corset, leather

5 tops

4 sweaters

2 blouses

1 nightgown

5 pair of socks

panties & a bra

1 bikini

1 purse

1 book

1 toque

1 pink cowboy hat

3 files of work

snacks & juice boxes

sex toys

SM toys

ziplock bag filled with belts

ziplock bag filled with jewelry & 1 extra small jewelry box

ziplock bag filled with bracelets

my favorite blanket & flashlight

I love/miss you cards to send to my child

scarf & gloves

extra large foldable bag to bring home gifts in

book & magazine

empty notebook

subway tickets

toiletries

camera & interface cable

laptop & charger

advertising handouts

promotional materials

wallet, ID and American money

long distance phone card

1 refillable water bottle

and there's still a few more items on my list to be packed up into my suitcase before I head to bed tonight.

In less than 11 hours I will be on my way to New York!

WOW WOW WOW

support

Support comes in many forms. Sometimes words & actions, other times someone's presence and on some occasions support means money.

My being able to attend the Leather Leadership Conference was made possible by the generous financial support of


Citrus O Carpet Cleaning
Little Sisters Book Store
Storm Brewing


I leave in less than 24 hours, hooray! I filled my car with gas for the drive to Seattle and topped up my tires with air already. The trunk is cleaned out, oh yes, I still need to empty out my wallet and just take the necessities for ID.

While I'm so far away my daughter will need some support. Earlier I picked up a couple of "missing you" greeting cards from the store and will fill them in and start mailing them to my daughter today. Then she'll actually get mail from me for most of my time way if I start sending it to her before I leave. Also picked up a few packages of small little scrap booking supplies so they'll fit in the envelopes as a surprise treat for her.

Just got an email from friends; their plan is to attend the Museum of Modern Art this Friday by sliding out of the conference for a quick tour of MOMA. How cool to have friends to attend this legendary place with, I'm just not sure about missing any of the conference. But then rumor has it, that the museum is FREE on Fridays, and that make it look even more enticing.


Some time soon I've got to remember to talk about my friend Casy. She's a distributor for adult toys in N Delta, a good friend of mine, supporter or Libido Events and one hell of a sexy woman. Waving a big hi at you Casy and saying thanks again for your continued support of both Libido Events and myself & activism. You have my thanks & respect. Plus I like knowing that I can have my way with you at any time and that it would make you and your partners happy. [insert evil little laugh here]

Linnea, I'm waving at you babe and saying hello because I'm unable to touch base for a couple of weeks now on the phone. Got your message though and it made me smile, you always do though.

Shantar, let's talk as soon as I return and Hugh I adore you, thank you for the chair support.

New York class

Proudly, this is now my third year presenting for LLC and below is my contribution for this year. As a sex activist this is one of the highlights of my year and also the one event where I'm most humbled to be amongst such legendary people, some of whom have even helped shaped me in to who I am today.

Catching up though with everyone is an exhausting event in of itself, never mind the workshop and the poster session I've signed Libido Events up for.


INDIVIDUAL SKILLS TRACK

Session I
Leadership as Service

Our community is one of strong egos and opinions and many people who claim to be leaders. It is our opinion that the best leaders come from a place of service. We will attempt to answer the following questions. What is Service? For that matter, what is Leadership? What does it entail? Does it mean that you have to bottoming to the community and those who you lead? Please come prepared for discussion and dialogue.

Allena, Jennifer Skrukwa, Marie Gagnon

shoe whore

On Tuesday I leave. I'm so excited to be heading to New York City for the first time in my life and to be sharing the experience with Bella.

Started my packing my bags two days ago as there is that much that needs planned for in the way of clothes and SHOES.

Oh my, am I ever a shoe whore. I'm taking 5 pair of heels, two pairs of boots and a pair of sneakers! Fabulous choices I made in the footwear department after figuring out what clothes I was going to be needing to coordinate them to. What an ordeal to gather all the outfits necessary for this 6 day long excursion. Romping around my room half naked trying clothes on, then discarding them back to my closet or folding them into my suitcase to become my wardrobe while away.

Still more packing to happen and a few things left to pick up from a store, then I'll be ready to fly away. In the mean time, I must finish completing work projects on my computer and spending plenty of quality time with my daughter before she heads to her dads over this time.

Today my mom and step father were over visiting for a few hours, which was a really delightful change. Usually we only see them when we go to their place, so it's a big treat to have had them here. Once they left I realized that the new anatomically correct penis and vagina models I have were on proud display on top of a shelf in their line of sight.

Bacon, eggs and hashbrowns at 3:00 this afternoon for my daughter and I and now that Shaw spent part of today working on my internet, I'm happily back on line after sporadic connectivity for the past few days. The joys of internet. yuck

my army buddies

this was taken at SEAF by Jim, who made me take off my top when the festival was over just so he could shoot me with the boys in green!

slippery stuff

my friend Jenn over at Tickled Pink Toys gave me a new product to try out a few weeks back. My plan was to try it sooner, but with truly a bin full of other new items that needed attention first, I had actual work to do before trying something for my own carnal pleasure.

With some time to myself the other day, the house quiet, my rabbit vibrator and I put to use Jenns gift finally.

Lube, good ol' slippery stuff and it's a great product. Now I love lube and it's exciting to find one that stays sticky, non tacky and will not dry out at a critical moment. If it does start to dry out, add a drop of water or a little saliva and it reactivates it all over again for smooth sleekness.

Here is the new product for you to try.

**it's a BC made product as well :)

real sex in front of a camera

Click Click Click Click Click Click Click Click Click Click

it rang loud in my ears for the first few minutes, the sound of the camera capturing moments of my sex.

Quickly the "Click" faded away to my ears and there we were having sex, lost in our own pleasure forgetting the man with the camera and all the over-head bright, hot, lights.

My eyes opened and David was standing on the bed as we were consumed in one another. My eyes met his camera and I made love to him and his lens for a few moments. "Click"

When the orgasm was building in me my eyes darted again to the lens and there again all I heard was "Click" from David and "good girl" from my Daddy.


Both David & I are eager to see what he captured as we did some sex play that he'd not before had an opportunity to photograph.

"Click" "Click"

oh my, I'm feeling a little vulnerable right now

what a great experience

"Click" "Click"

could it get any better

My life is amazing. I've been down here in Seattle since Friday and spending all my time at SEAF - The Seattle Erotic Art Festival The experience is like nothing you can imagine, being there makes you feel so alive.

Tonight was the HUGE art auction - people dressed in their best, be it fetish wear, tuxedos or costumes everyone looked brilliant. [I was in a custom fitted leather corset, black 6 inch heels and a leather skirt that was a creation made for me some years ago] Selecting only 50 pieces of art from the well over 1200 pieces submitted you can imagine the auction as a 2 hour brilliant showcase and sale of each of those pieces.

We had the front row center table with the most fabulous view of the entire auction and live performance art. Wanting to share this experience with people really close to us our table had Allena whose birthday happens to be today, Daddy whose art hung at the show and is founder of the four year old SEAF, David Steinberg, Michele Serchuck, Preston (Allena's boy), and two of our other friends who will remain nameless and myself. Surrounding us at other tables, Midori, Michael Manning, Charlie, Jeff Hengst, The Salon DeSade women and and and well, it was a room filled with pretty amazing people doing all incredibly bold, passionate sex-positive things with their lives.

I've returned early to Allena's to get some rest as tomorrow I'm teaching two classes at The Wet Spot. Afternoon classes and back to back are Cock Sucking, the Handjob Blowjob class and Sex Tips From A Bi Sexual Woman.

I booked Charles Gatewood today to come present again for Libido Events, watch the website for updates. When Charles last came there was a full house for his slide show and accompanying talk about each slide. All the while I was hiring him today he was making the moves on me again to model for him. When he last here, he stayed at my house and we had much fun together, enjoying one another's company. He'd asked me then as well, and I declined for not being up to it at that moment. But since he's coming back again, I've agreed to let him shoot me. Very cool!

And of course, I'm driving David Steinberg home with me from SEAF late tomorrow night or Monday morning and he's presenting an Erotic Slide Show for Libido Events Monday evening and then Tuesday he and I have booked a date. We booked it months ago but it's just finally happening. Tuesday David is going to photograph me having sex. This is big for even me. More later on how all this came to be.

Anyways I must get to sleep before Daddy and Bella arrive home and I awaken to the sounds of them.

Did I mention that my life is amazing and my family incredible? Well it is, my life is amazing and my family incredible.

and I thank the Godesses

what makes a girl feel special?

an email from the stranger that I gave a lap dance to at a swingers dance the week before brought a smile to face when it came in earlier tonight....

Hi,

Its Scott here. I just want to thank you for the private dance on Friday night and the feel up at the bar. You are one very sexy lady. Hope to see you again.

Scott xoxo

and on Darma and Greg this evening, Darma's friend said to her " do you know what makes a girl happy?" Darma shakes her head No, her friend says mischievously "a thong worn backwards."

I've just finished defrosting my freezer, at the same time that I've been packing all my luggage and teaching stuff up for my trip to Seattle this weekend. I'm leaving at 7:30 tomorrow morning.

What else makes a girl feel so special is to have a Daddy as wonderful as mine.

I love you Daddy! and Bella too, whose birthday is this weekend. Yippee!!

dining out

grab your sweety or take yourself out alone to dine, either way make sure that whatever restaurant you eat at tomorrow is supporting A Loving Spoonful. Read on to learn how you can be a hero...

Serving up support for Friends For Life & A Loving Spoonful

Dining Out For Life is one of the key fundraising events for Friends For Life and A Loving Spoonful. Last year we were very blessed as diners and participating restaurants helped to break all records, raising $165,000 for these two worthy organizations.

This year's event, which will be taking place on Thursday, March 23rd, promises to be just as exciting! An estimated 185 restaurants from Whistler to White Rock (our highest numbers ever) will be participating, donating 25 % of their food sales on that day to help Friends For Life and A Loving Spoonful provide nutrition programs and support services to people living with HIV/AIDS.

We are also excited to announce that Wolf Blass Wines is returning as Title Sponsor for the event. During the entire month of March, Wolf Blass will be donating partial proceeds of every bottle of wine sold. Really, what better excuse does anyone need to enjoy a glass or two of premium vino than knowing you are supporting a very worthy cause?

For more information, including a list of participating restaurants, please see Dining Out For Life.

keeping track of myself

• awake 6:00am
  
• awaken daughter 7:30am
  
• make breakfast
  
• drive daughter to school 8:30
  
• pull in to the bank
  
• took a call from a friend in crisis (worrying me)
  
• arrive to Little Sisters for a meeting
  
• met with Reive for a visit (more later)
  
• checked voice mail at home while stuck in traffic
  
• visited Jenni & her new store in Gastown (more later)
  
• over to grope James body and chat about sex & life
  
• stoped at my post box
  
• fill up the car with gas
  
• made two calls while sitting in the car outside my childs school
  
• picked up my daughter at 3:00
  
• went and had the oil changed in my car
  
• drove home
  
• unloaded my daughter and I into the house
  
• dinner is cooking
  
• and here I sit making this list
  

as promised

Felicity is cheap and trashy

with respect & friendship

Jennifer

before a camera naked

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