where I've been

Been so busy that sleep isn't even a consideration, in fact, the lack of sleep is making me nauseous. How attractive . Yes, it is conference building time in my life and this makes some stress.

Today I volunteered in the morning at the Terry Fox run at my daughters school, she's is grade 7 this year and this is my last year as a parent volunteer in grade school and I'm really wanting to savor the experiences. It was inspiring to see 400 and something children run past me as I stood in my crossing guard sash holding a Stop sign at the corner to keep them all safe. The did it for Terry and they keep running and keep raising money for cancer research all these years later.

Then I went to pick up an out of country friend from the laser eye surgeons in the downtown core. It was a cool feeling to be the very first recognizable person someone sees after laser eye surgery. Had both his eyes repaired, was laying in the recovery room and in I walk saying hello and to collect the poor guy who was a little wonky on Ativan.

We spent a wonderful afternoon together kissing & flirting, eating Greek for lunch, being carried to the water at English Bay, walking in the ocean, and going to Cupcakes on Denman for sugar treats The weather held and it was a great way to spend 5 hours before dropping J off back to his hotel room and returning home myself.

Hard to believe he arrived from Seattle yesterday morning and his eyes are already repaired. I've got a parking pass to an underground parkade downtown and a room card to a nice hotel suite with an ocean view at the entrance to Stanley Park. I've also been invited to use my room card to gain access to J's room any time day or night during his 4 night stay. He'd welcome me and make me feel at home, he promised.

Hot man, who is a Top and likes SM and rope bondage, 38 years old and friend to both Jim & Allena which makes my dating or playing with him somewhat easier for me as the trust consideration is already built up because I know of him from people I trust and love. Gives him a unique advantage.

And today I stopped off at this little store and found myself a very pink pair of knee high, lace up the front boots in my size. Size 9. And they fit and I WANT them. Want, I hate want, especially when I'm in it. No boots in the cards for today, instead a new black pvc chain thong to keep my girlie bits covered in public settings where complete nudity is frowned upon.

Tomorrow I work 9:30-7 and Jim is coming up for the night, thankfully as I miss him so much. Especially right now, after a date, I'd like to share in person with him what my date was like and with all this conference planning some time spent on his lap would do me and my nerves a world of good.

oh yes, go and have a peek at what has been driving me wild & keeping me up all night

Jennifer
Conference Organizer

episode of Oprah

There is this very handsome man I know named Aidan whose lives in Seattle WA. We've been friends a few years now through community building, activism and sex positive culture. Aidan is going to be on the Oprah show this Friday September 16. Last week I received an email from Aidan about the show, I've cut and pasted most of it here with Aidans permission of course for you to read...

Here is the scoop. My sister Brenda and I went to Chicago in February to film an episode of the Oprah Winfrey Show. This episode was focused on the story of identical twins where one pursues a gender transition (for those who don't know, that would be me). This is of interest to many in the scientific community because of how it challenges commonly held beliefs of how gender is determined. In the past, the debate has focused on whether gender is determined by nature or nurture. This is perhaps too simplistic when one takes into consideration the identical genetic makeup of my sister and me combined with our similar upbringing. Makes one question--Just what the heck happened to Brenda? Love her to death but she is so.....so normal!

Anyhow, we were told this episode would air by the end of last May and it never did. I would have questioned that I had even gone to Chicago if I wasn't drinking my coffee every morning out of my Oprah mug. Just when I resigned myself to the episode sitting in the midst of cobwebs on the "not so interesting" shelf, I received an email from the producer stating an air date of September 16th, 2005.

And here is what I found on the Oprah web site when I clicked on tune in this week, and then hit Friday:

09/16/05 When Your Identical Twin Has a Sex Change (TV-14)
In 20 years, this is a subject we've never covered. Brenda and Bonnie were born identical twiIdentical..but, Bonnie is now Aiden.


Well, well, Oprah and Aidan meet. How exciting is this! Damn this is one show that I'm going to watch even though I'm not normally a TV viewer.

Now I'm off to finish packing my toys & gear for work this evening. I'm teaching Private Parts: Genital Play for the Adventurous in Bellingham WA tonight and am driving down with both kara and Felicity. Three women in one car and a load of genital play supplies, let's hope we make it to the class. ; )

hugs & blessing

Jennifer

work & pleasure today

So what if I work both today and tomorrow from 9:30-7pm! Tonight I'm
going to finish work, drive home quickly, shower and step into some
provocative hot little number then get my tired self over to Sin City
for some fun and action!

I plan on dancing and playing up a storm tonight and would love
nothing more than to run into sexy people all night long that I know.
If you see me tonight, stop by for a hello, it would be
great to catch up a little.

Bringing some toys with me in the hopes of finding a willing er um,
victim, or two or three to play with in the dungeon. And maybe
someone in the building will be gifted at massage because I'd like
nothing more than to lay back on the pool table, a coffee
table or across someones lap tonight to be rubbed down by some
sexy person.

Time to get dressed for work - hope everyone has a good Saturday and look
forward to see you this evening at 23 West Cordova for Sin City.
*remembering that a night out like this is only what you make of it*

hugs

Jennifer

the sit down talk continued

This morning as I was driving my daughter to school I was mentally adding to yesterdays list of things that I talk with my partners about, here is the final list of the major items that spring to mind....

I can not be all things to you, nor am I interested in trying to be everything to you. Honor me with the same courtesy.

If I'm going to take a risk or do something big with a casual partner in my life, as someone I love, I will talk with you about it before hand. Honor me with the same courtesy.

When booking play time and dates with others, I will remember our life together as the priority and everything else as a bonus. Honor me with the same courtesy.

If you say Jennifer absolutely not can I accept you playing or sleeping with this person, then after we talk it over and I understand your rational feelings, I will move forward to someone else. There are enough people in this world, that I never need to put you out, in pursuit of my own pleasure. Honor me with the same courtesy.

Personal notes or gifts between myself and those I'm close to will be kept not locked away, but rather tucked away. You're welcome to see them but they will not be in your face. Honor me with the same courtesy.

The lovers pet names used between us when we're together I shall never use with another partner. Honor me with the same courtesy.

I'll never tell you that you do something just like soandso my other partner, even if paid as a compliment. You are unique and will remembered and talked to as such. Honor me with the same courtesy.

That sex toy we bought together for our use, remains ours, no one else will ever touch it unless we've talked about it before hand. Honor me with the same courtesy.

If an emergency comes up for one of your other partners, you as an ethical partner, I understand must help, in whatever way you can. Honor me with the same courtesy.

Knowing that you juggle more than one relationship, a work life, manage a home and a personal life I accept that sometimes my wants may have to go to the back burner for a short time. Honor me with the same courtesy.

I'll never push you to do something sexually with me that you have no interest in exploring. Honor me with the same courtesy.

If something changes in my life circumstances or other relationships that is "big" I will bring it you right away. Honor me with the same courtesy.

I accept that relationships need not be a life time long to be a success, so when ours is over, if ever, it'll be ok and I can be your friend. Honor me with the same courtesy.

Sometimes relationship mistakes just get made or our guidelines forgotten, I understand it's hard in the beginning and even harder sometimes when lust clouds the judgment. When you make a mistake, tell me right away, so I can forgive you and you yourself. Honor me with the same courtesy.

Jennifer
Poly & Proud

the sit down talk

came home from work tonight and had on my mind some of the things I tell to those I'm looking to date or play with or have as poly & life partners. Here is a small sampling...

After being with someone intimately I'll freshen up or shower before seeing you. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

When I have a date I'll tell you with whom, general plans and when I'm returning. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

When returning from a date, I'll let you know that I'm safe and if anything else happened that you should know about. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

I will do my best to not surprise you with anything from my other relationships. I'll not fall in love with someone and tell you after I've figured it out. Once I know something to be true for myself, in a relationship of mine aside from ours, I'll bring it to the table so you'll never be caught completely off guard by my stuff. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

No one will ever know of our deep private times, I will never sacrifice us and share those times with any other. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

Unless I ask to know one of your casual play partners, then I have no interest in knowing them. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

There will be no romantic phone calls to my other partners in front of you during our dedicated time together. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

Kissing so big in today's culture and our community, when we're out together, I will not kiss and suck face with anyone other than you, without your consent. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

After a date of mine and there is a mess left behind; the after math of an afternoon of some sex, bondage, play and passion. You are soon to arrive, I'll go full steam putting everything away before you're arrival, because you deserve a fresh start to our time together, not watching me tidy from something or someone else. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

If I do something in public with another, you will be the first to know from my lips what it was, as you will never be left to hear something third hand. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

The hour we agreed to meet at, shall find me there waiting for you on time and prompt. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

If I need something from you emotionally I'll do my best to articulate it to you directly, maturely and away from others. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

Should you ever ask me a question, know that honesty will be what drives my answer. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

When times are hard, I'm angry or frustrated with us, I may leave the room to catch my breath but I will never walk away and leave you behind. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

In our relationship together, know that whatever I start with you, I vow to finish. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

To keep you safe I'll not share with others the things we do that I know are hard for you. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

When you have something to say, I will stop and not simply hear you, but actually stop and listen to you. Honor me with the same courtesy please.


You will be treated with respect and regard in public. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

I will not ask you to marry me. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

Whomever loves you, I will keep you safe for and return you to, in good condition. Honor me with the same courtesy please.

good night one and all,

Jennifer
Libido Events

domestic bliss

I've been in a domestic state of bliss this long weekend. Spending precious time alone with my daughter with no agenda and catching up on the zillion of little things that build up and never get dealt with around home.

Sponged the border in my daughters room, hung more photo's down the long hallway, cleaned the porch off, emptied out my car trunk, did laundry, caught up on personal calls and banking, bought groceries and back to school shopped. Cleaned out daughters closet and dresser drawers, made a pot of clam chowder soup from scratch and took some to my neighbor as he'd done me a favor awhile back. Vacuumed the house and cleaned up after the cat that we're looking after right now for kara.

September is In House workshop short for me as I prepare to unveil the Libido Events Vancouver Sexuality Empowerment Conference scheduled October 14-16. My time is so needed to work on the outside classes that I've been contracted to teach for other groups and of course finalizing details for the conference endeavor that between all of that, motherhood and poly partners, I'm done.

After the conference is over I'll resume a regular teaching schedule of In House classes/events. In the short term should you wish to hire me as a personal coach or guide in sex positive culture, please drop me an email as I am available for private work.

The advertiser on the front page of the Libido Events web site has changed, go and have look and then click through to see what wonderful products they offer.

Jennifer

PS. check out the new category on the right side of this page, scroll down a bit till you find "Toys In My Box"

the fair & a house guest

While seated in the stands of the Pacific Coliseum to watch the Super Dogs show with my daughter at the PNE - I was struck in my pink cowboy hat by a flying foam paw that was a freebie being thrown up into the stands. My pink cowboy hat being a magnet of course to this paw and fortune, was knocked right off my head and into the lap of the woman behind me. Hands of nearby children are reaching towards me trying to grab the paw, but once everyone sees that the paw has knocked my hat off and now the paw has landed straight into my lap. All hands retreat - the prize is mine.

My hat magically reappears alongside me and I put it atop my head while I'm turning to my daughter who is sitting next to me laughing uncontrollably at my predicament. Stopped laughing pretty quick when she realized I didn't want a foam paw so it was then to become her prize. What a day it was at the PNE for us today and a full day as well. We arrived at the Fair at 11:30 and left at 8pm. Got home and settled just in time for kara to arrive to come by for a visit & a cuddle before she left her cat with us for a week while she and her partner are away on holidays. We've never owned a cat before my daughter & I so this should be quite the little experiment. So far so good, kara is long gone and the cat has slowly settled in over the evening now.

night

Jennifer

asked on a date at work

At work this afternoon, standing alone in a mind set of work related non sex topics, reading a clip board before a shelf when suddenly next to me is a man. Tall, fit, good looking, dark hair, late thirties, he smiles warmly right at me, brightly, a flash of white teeth and enthusiasm, his eyes meet mine and lock in.

Hi he says. "I saw you last week when you were working here and I'd wanted to ask you something then, but then you left and I thought I'd missed the opportunity as I'd never seen you here before." sighs Now before I can say anything past hello to him, as he just paused for breath here, smiles at me again at which point his eyes light up and he says "I was wondering if I could ask you out on a date?" More smiling and he leans towards me a little and I hear myself say, "I'm so flattered, thank you so much for the kind offer, but I'm already taken. My partner a woman and I have been together for years now and are quite happy."

"Now that we've had this little visit, let me introduce myself I say to him", my name is Jennifer. I extend my hand to shake his as he tells me his name and continues to tell me how much of a struggle it is to meet someone these days and how he found me attractive, different and friendly and thought he'd try asking me out.

How sweet to be asked out on a date and by someone who has no clue what I do in the rest of my life as a sex activist. Very cool, made my day. He took my being partnered to a woman well and didn't bat an eye over it, thankfully. Why did I tell him I was partnered to a woman and not a man you might be wondering.

It goes like this, I prefer at work (at my day job) for being thought of as unavailable and by telling men I'm with a woman, well, word travels fast and I'm left alone for the most part from that meat market. Plus it's not a lie it's the truth, well the actual truth is that I have two women partners.

If I'd told him I was with a man then I would if interested enough in going out on a date with this new man, would have needed to have told him that I practice poly and I'm again not prepared to do that at work.

I also practice no false hopes. Lead no one on ever. If I'm here to talk & flirt you'll know the difference with me from when you feel my desire to seduce or fuck you. Say what I mean or what I want always, and do so with honesty & conviction. Be forthcoming about what I have to offer and not offer. Tell who I am, how I love and the boundaries that surround a relationship with me.

Lest we forget that I'm kinky beyond belief and with this fact alone in mind, I should never date anyone at work. Good practice for me.

And further to any of the above, how would I have explained my relationships with kara, Allena, Doug and Jim? ha

Jennifer

finding my groove

Sunday daytime, following Saturday nights Women's Only Naughty PJ Party (hot party, if you're a woman you should have been there) I had Doug come over to help me paint a room in my house. We did it successfully as well, it turned out great, one room, three walls of it, done in vibrant Tangerine. Took us 6 hours to do it from primer to second coat of paint and clean up but it was worth every second we spent painting and every ounce of energy. Plus, inbetween coats, waiting for the color to dry, well I got to have my way with Doug.

Picture a man, in a leather hood, laying on the gyn table in my room - feet up in stirrups and using words like Please & Ma'am a lot. Made for a fabulous afternoon of domestic chores mixed with sex play and I was running on adrenaline at this point as I'd been at the Women's Party the night before till 2 and not to bed till 3.

Doug left at about 4:30 Monday after painting and being done by me! I then had a chance to shower and work on the computer some before Jim arrived for the evening with me. (our last night alone together)

Jim thought he'd enjoy eating his dinner more, if he put his hot bowl on the flesh of my naked stomach. He had me lay a blanket on the living room floor and then he put his dinner on my stomach and he ate his dinner out of the bowl while sitting next to me on the floor watching tv.

When he finally finished eating I found myself bound in hemp rope and unable to move either of my legs as they were tied as columns to one another and spread wide. Nasty fun on the living room floor till I was finally untied and ordered off to the bedroom where we went and I was used till I fell asleep unable to register anything except two things...

1. I was laying in a very wet puddle of girl juice
2. I was exhausted

Jim went home yesterday just before noon and then I headed off to work. The routine of life back again as my daughter returned last night and as such the revolving door of poly around here will disappear until Christmas break now and every other weekend.

Today I'm working this afternoon and then home to be mom full time again. School goes back in next week, the return to our routine will be welcome for me and an interesting transition for my daughter and for those who've grown accustomed over the summer to my availability.

Jennifer

misogyny / misandry and love

Misogynist, meaning a woman-hater is formed on the Greek misogunes, from misein, meaning hate, misos, meaning hatred, and gune, meaning WOMAN. It first appeared in written English in 1620 (spelled misogenyst).

In 1980 Sheila Ruth Defined misogyny as a word which "includes the beliefs that women are stupid, petty, manipulative, dishonest, silly, gossipy, irrational, incompetent, undependable, narcissistic, castrating, dirty, over emotional, unable to make altruistic judgments, oversexed, undersexed....Such beliefs culminate in attitudes that demean our bodies, our abilities, our characters, and our efforts, and imply that we must be controlled, dominated, subdued, abused, and used, not only for male benefit but for our own." (Issues In Feminism: A First Course in Womens Studies, 1980)

It was not until 1946 that misandry, meaning hatred of men, from the Greek aner, andr-, meaning a man, entered the vocabulary.

It's important for me to tell you that I'm intelligent, precise, honest, practice privacy and excellent personal & professional boundaries, am clean, skilled at loving myself or finding partners willing to do so with me, rational, strong, independent and willing to take ownership for my own stuff.

Know that Jim thinks I'm the most beautiful woman in the world and is moved by my commitment and passion towards anything I touch or breath life into. He knows my strengths and encourages me to follow and pursue my dreams and lust. I'm by no means squashed in my relationship here where I give up control, but rather empowered.

No one has the right to control me or my body in any way, shape or form and I'd fight for this right if it was ever taken from me. I can give up the control for a moment or a relationship long, but no one has the right to me. I'm a woman capable of standing on her own and achieving much for my family and for a greater community. Not just things for myself but things for others to benefit and grow by as well. I'm a creator, visionary and a force.

So strong, so strong, oh yes I am! This is who I am, because this is who I've evolved in to being while dealing with life. Strong, proud and independent. Then Jim shows up and there is my submission pouring out of me...it's how I love, atleast in this relationship. Jim doesn't hate me, no no, rather the opposite, Jim, my Daddy, he loves me so much that he dominates and controls me; subdues and uses me for strictly his own pleasures, and controls areas whole areas of my life, self and body. Misogynist?? Nope, sorry wrong answer. Rather a loving BDSM relationship between two mature consenting adults.

Only in my relationship with Jim have I freely given up certain basic rights, privlidges and expectations. It's a gift that I give to him, my trust unwavering and with that, my body. Use me for your pleasure, but keep me safe, god help us both, keep me safe and I'll come crawling back over and over again for more of you if you'll love me in this way. Love me with discipline, rules, regard, respect, a heavy hand and I'll continue to give up that control so you no longer need to take it anymore, it's become a given.

In being used by my partner because this is what we've chosen as our love style, well this is nothing more than a miracle that we've found one another. It's while being used, when my mind has taken the leap of faith necessary to allow this to happen that I start feeling as though I'm being empowered and filled with life fuel. It's over these times that I've come to find my biggest strengths and to know my most ugliest truths.

There is beauty in finding someone to share yourself in this way, I'm fortunate enough to have found Jim and in him love, Daddy and a Sir. Some times the way that we love one another looks odd to others, let's just all remember that there are many different love styles.

Jennifer
who loves a little differently

PS right now my car is packed and I'm heading off to work all day from 11:30-6pm then drive straight to this evenings Womens Only Naughty Party - a sex positive event from 8-1am then home by 3 because Doug is arriving at 10 to help me paint a room in my house for the day!

non-sexist writing

When you call me Miss or Mrs.
You invade my private life,
For it's not the public's business
If I am, or was, a wife.

Anon, quoted in Miller & Swift The Handbook of Non-Sexist Writing

info & partner sharing

Last night I worked Privately with a couple in their home for a few hours. As this was my second time being hired by them so it was a smooth and easy evening of discussions on Dominance & Power along with suggestions as to how to put it into actual play for themselves.

Being a guide for others and sharing what I know is my passion, it's how I give back to a culture and community that has blessed me with so many gifts. Sharing myself and knowledge & guiding others without shame, but rather with joy and passion, is what makes me so attractive to others I hear both personally and professionally.

Sitting naked at the computer Blogging before I need to head to work from 11:30-6pm, then I'm off to have dinner with a friend. I'm off to meet Doug's wife for dinner.

It's good poly practice for me to have a relationship with my partners significant other and in this case, it's a wife. She's a really cool woman whom I'm enjoying getting to know better over time. How amazing is it, that she allows me the privilege of playing with her husband in BDSM and permits us our relationship? WOW, lucky woman I am and tonight is my chance to thank her again and to check in with her as sharing your partner is a big deal and needs to be honored in my world.

ah, and only because it's funny do I share this, but my dear friend J, phoned me at 10:50 last night for a booty call. Normally I'd kill someone for phoning me at home so late at night and especially for something as hedonistic as a booty call, but with my daughter away on holidays, I found the whole matter hilarious. Although I declined the invite, we did set a date to get together with one another. Happy Birthday to you today J!

Sometime late tonight when I get home it will be time for me to start packing up for this Saturdays Women's Only Naughty PJ Party A Sex Positive Event.

Time to get dressed as my day job is the only job that I have that requires me to wear clothes. Go figure!

blessings

Jennifer

private class & daddy time

Last night I taught Sex Tips From A Bi Sexual Woman at the studio and then drove straight home to Jim who'd driven up to spend the night the night here with me. We cooked steaks and corn at 11:00 at night, then crawled into bed and made love till 2 in the morning. Our schedules have been so full as of late that we've resorted to snatching time however and whenever we can get it together.

We rolled out of bed this morning awhile ago now and not without complaint on my behalf. I love sleeping with my Daddy and being cuddled up in his warmth is intoxicating for me and so pulling us apart is often difficult as I hang on tight and make known my displeasure. (ha, it's the little girl in me) I've already cleaned up the bins and toys from last nights class and gotten Jim well on the road to Olympia. This afternoon I work, then this evening I'm teaching a private class.

I was contracted a week or so ago to teach a 3 hour class on Women's Dominance / SM 101 to a woman privately in the city at her home. The class went great and she got a lot out of it and now this evening, I've been hired again. This time, she and her partner have hired me and are going to see me as a couple to explore, female submission and male dominance.

Since I work this afternoon till 6pm I will be driving straight from work to my evening appointment and returning to a home and bed all to myself. Daughter still away on holidays and no poly partners in sight, my bed will be my own tonight. The questions that remains is "what time will I actually make it into bed and away from the work in my computer?"

Jennifer

smart balls for the vagina-review

What follows is a Product Review

Looks so innocent, almost like a stress ball that goes in the palm of your hand and you squeeze. But no, these are Smart Balls, coated in elastomer which is an inert,
hypoallergenic rubber that's safe and nonporous and they get covered in a layer of lube and slid up into the vaginal cavity where they'll stay nestled away as long as you want to enjoy them you lucky woman you!

My Smart Balls came in yellow and pink and are covered in subtle grooves that make even the simple act of insertion fun to draw out and toy with. Pop in one and slide it back it out, pop another in and grab the cord and tug. Tug, again and again and again, not hard enough to pull them out, just hard enough to make them wiggle and please you.

Two balls connected slightly and each containing a smaller ball inside designed specifically to allow the balls to constantly be in motion & rolling silently while we're moving about, thus giving way to a heightened sense of awareness to our pelvic interior and their delicious movement. What a lovely feeling of fullness and movement roaming your insides for an intimate massage with the Smart Balls.

Subtle, so subtle you can wear this to work and easy to remove with a simple pull cord when your done with it. The cord is covered in hypoallergenic rubber that makes cleaning simple and drips non existent.

This month Tickled Pink Toys has these Smart Balls on for $34.95 Canadian

Tickled Pink Toys ships within 2 business days for in-stock items with 90% of orders shipping within 24 hours of order placement.

Shipping Information: Standard shipping within North America is free for orders over $100. They offer flat rate shipping of $10 within North America for standard shipping of orders under $100, plus express courier service of $20 within Canada, and $40 to the USA.

enjoy your pleasure seeking,

Jennifer
Libido Events

waxing purple toes

Let me tell you about my Saturday afternoon...

I had this date with this really attractive woman that I love. Let's call her my bottom, kara.

She was dressed as I asked her to be, in a skirt, sun hat, bra and pantiless. (accessible) Me in a dress and a hat as well.


Strolling through the Vandusen Botanical Gardens in Vancouver for hours hand in hand, we had such a lovely day together with no where particular to be and no agenda other than spending time with one another. We paused and spread a sheet and lay in the shade eating a picnic lunch and talking together while looking out at a sea of foliage and brilliant colored flowers so tall they blocked others from seeing us completely sitting on the grass floor.

Wandered over to the waterfall that was so stunning we had to sit and pause on bench to appreciate the view. (and to fondle one another) Walking further past lawns that are immaculate so immaculate here that it makes you wonder what little people with gardening tools must come out at night to create this wonder.

Finally I settled kara on to another bench later in the afternoon, next to a pond with pink and white lilies floating in it and turtles swimming amonst the lily pads as the hot afternoon sun was shaded behind very tall tress. Put a blindfold on her so she wouldn't know what was about to happen and then pulled her sun hat down so no one could see her face. Remove her shoes and put her feet on the sheet on the bench. On my knees next to her, I kiss her cheek and light the candle in my hand. She knows nothing, yet can hear the lighter I'm sure.

kara loves to have her feet covered in wax so......I took my candle and in the middle of the park with people walking by, blindfolded her while sitting next to the pond, I slowly covered her toes covered in purple paint in paraffin wax. Dripped some all over her feet, down her ankles, made it splatter and watched her body move to the heat of the candle wax and to the want that was building up in both of us. We played with the hot wax for a good 20 minutes before our little impromptu scene ended. What fun, I am a very lucky woman.

I should spend more Saturday afternoons lost in the bliss of a partner and so should you!

Jennifer

And for those of you environmentalists, don't worry, we did not leave the park floor covered in wax, we removed it from her feet with a scrubbie and put it all on the sheet, rolled it up, then I brought it all home to dispose of it myself.

back to city life

Hours out of the city, up in Whistler relaxing with my child was exactly the holiday and rest needed for the both of us. We strolled through the Village center and wandered through stores like the Lush, Gap, Cows, Chocolate Houses, Jewlery Cabinets, Art Exhibits and every tourist store we came upon. Ate sushi for lunch and picked up groceries earlier so the condo fridge was stocked with snacks and supplies.

We went to see the new movie March of the Penguins and it was spectacular. Narrated by Morgan Freedman who has the most lovely voice, the movie/documentary was riveting.

I've cut and pasted this from the Official Website:

Each winter, alone in the pitiless ice deserts of Antarctica, deep in the most inhospitable terrain on Earth, a truly remarkable journey takes place as it has done for millennia. Emperor penguins in their thousands abandon the deep blue security of their ocean home and clamber onto the frozen ice to begin their long journey into a region so bleak, so extreme, it supports no other wildlife at this time of year. In single file, the penguins march blinded by blizzards, buffeted by gale force winds. Resolute, indomitable, driven by the overpowering urge to reproduce, to assure the survival of the species.

Guided by instinct, by the otherworldly radiance of the Southern Cross, they head unerringly for their traditional breeding ground where - after a ritual courtship of intricate dances and delicate maneuvering, accompanied by a cacophony of ecstatic song - they will pair off into monogamous couples and mate.... more on the website along with a great trailer

Penguins are monogamous birds, but only for a mating season and so each year when they look for a partner, they look to a new penguin. How cool is it, that once they mate, and the process is complete then the next year when they begin again to look for new companionship and another to have a baby with, they look to and search out a new penguin? What a story the penguins have, one that you should check out for yourself, it's a National Geographic feature film as well.

Last night we sat for over half an hour in an outdoor hot tub and watched the sunset together before retiring to the condo to watch a rental movie and eat Haagen Daaz Mango Sorbet a whole 500ml of it. Then late this afternoon after more time at Blackcomb children's zone, a couple of luge rides and packing up the car we finally headed back down the Sea to Sky highway only to return to Vancouver and our quiet little home life.

But before getting home it would be only fitting that my new tire runs over a nail and gets a flat, my second flat tire in less than a week and no I'm not joking. Off child and I drove to the wheel store to have them repair my tire and remembering me from last week found my demise amusing and quickly fixed our problem.

My daughter is in my bed right now sleeping and tomorrow she leaves to vacation with her father for a period of time. Right now, I'm playing catch up in front of the computer as being away from internet access has put me with a back log in my in box.

Jennifer

on holidays

In a few short hours I will be off with my daughter for 3 days of holidays in a centrally located rental condo in the heart of Whistler. Taking a break from everything to spend time with my daughter before school goes back in a few weeks is just what her and I both need.

This is time that I'm really looking forward to, alone time with my daughter and all I have to concentrate on is being a mother. Let me tell you about my not so little, little girl... (whose 11 years old)

she is beautiful, smart and fun
she is bright & inquisitive
she is creative & compassionate
she is liked by many and loved by many
she is quiet & a reader
she is strong, determined and resourceful
she is not like me all that much and yet, she is obviously my daughter

Our time will be spent sleeping in the same bed, holding hands, talking, napping, watching movies, shopping, eating, scooter riding, hot tubbing, getting massages, walking and relaxing.

My world here at home is very fast paced due to my activism & work and as much as I try to shelter my daughter from this stuff just by virtue of the fact that we live in the city our lives remain hectic. The opportunity to go away where no one has a phone number for me, there is no internet access in our condo so email will be checked only once daily and it's my hope to run it to NO ONE that I know. I want to be mom, my daughters mother only for this whole trip and leave my other worlds and stress behind.

wish us well...

Jennifer
my daughters mothers

dungeon floor

Last night I had a blast playing with this luscious woman at Sin City. Using pink hemp rope, I tied her hands behind her back and put her on her knees on the dungeon floor. We laughed, shouted, yelled and got sexy with one another, me with the advantage of course, being on Top, standing and having my hands free to roam and use her. My mouth to bite and nibble on her flesh and my hands to grab, slap and manipulate her to my whim.


L has the most amazing breasts, the kind made for nuzzling and slapping and a face that gives away what she's feeling immediately as her expressions are beautiful and the type that make you gasp just to watch. Suffice to say that we had much fun together. So much fun in fact, that Sunday on my way to her home for a BBQ I stopped off at the local pharmacy to get her some topical anesthetic to make the abrasions on her breasts feel better. It's good as a Top to look after those who bottom to me, I find it keeps them coming back for more over and over again.

I'd tell you more about what I did with L. except that both her and I believe that if you were meant to see our play together, then you should have been at Sin City in the public dungeon watching.

What fun to be exhibitionistic, when there are voyeurs around!

Jennifer
who plans on doing L again, if she'll say yes

off to play

black 6 inch heels open toed, on my feet

a thong black with circular O rings on each side and a black bandeau wrapped around my chest

white short pvc skirt with the matching car coat so I can escape my building and go somewhat undetected

down the hallway with my toy bag over my shoulder

packed with pink hemp rope loads of it, purple floggers, neuro wheel, blindfold, cane, crop and a paddle

I'm looking to Top

and I'm also looking to bottom (he he ha ha)

where might I be off to for such fun?

Sin City

Jennifer

flat tire and menstruation

This morning I had a hugely important meeting at 10 and so at 9:15 I'm driving out of my parkade and down the street for a whole block before things start feeling bumpy and weird. Pull over to the side of the road, get out and check the trunk, thinking it hadn't been closed properly and was banging, but oh no, couldn't and wouldn't be something that easy.

Then a Canada Post man walks by smiling at me at points to the front tire passenger side and says "lucky you, it's only flat on one side" and continues walking. No, really? Is this really happening to me? Oh yes it is and it's going to be a long day, I can tell.

A low level panic call to kara & Doug and between them, they convinced me that I was capable of changing my own tire. Flagged down some nice young man to help me with the jack because I could not figure out where on the frame to put it and so he showed me and then jacked me half up, then asked if I'd be ok, on my own for the rest and I of course, replied "Why of course, and thanks for stopping to help me." I'd never changed a tire before let alone used a spare. I'd no idea it was so tiny but thankfully I had one. And I did it succesfully, I changed my tire and tomorrow I'm going to go and get it repaired or replaced. If it's not one thing it's another.

The tire incident started my day and my day ended with my getting myself a really cool fishing rod case so I can take my canes out in it and have them not get damaged. This makes me happy as I've got some wonderful canes that need protecting when not in use.

And I did mention menstruation right? I have my period, yup the most natural thing in the world that happens to me monthly and it's here, and it started last night. I'm not using a tampon, nor and I using any pads in any form, I am not using a cup either, who knows what I'm using to deal with the flow of blood then? I don't buy feminine hygiene products any longer, I only use this ???

When my mother asks me what I want for my upcoming birthday I am going to tell her BCAA.

Jennifer